I'm feeling so hopeless

[carolk1955]

I don't have a life anymore and I miss the one I had so badly. I have no friends anymore, no family since my husband died in 2017. I lost my car and all my possessions when I took the advice of my social worker and moved to a personal care home after my husband died. My therapist referred me to a psychiatrist who changed my antidepressant. And then he didn't show up for my next appt. My therapist said he was in legal trouble and I found out he was accused of sexually assaulting a client. I found a new psychiatrist who I see today via telehealth. I think I need a different antidepressant because this one isn't doing me any good. I cry all the time or feel like crying. I want to move back to my hometown so badly but I can't afford it since my only income is social security and most of their subsidized housing's waiting lists are closed. It doesn't seem like my therapist is helping me much so maybe I should look for a new one. She is pretty much the only person I talk to, once a week, which isn't enough. I don't even know if the local support groups are meeting on account of COVID, but even if they were, transportation is a problem. I never get out of here. There are some really nice places for seniors (I'm 64) to live but I can't afford them. I had a really nice apartment before I moved here. I qualify for a free cell phone but I can't get it because I can't get my social security info in the file format to upload it to the website. There just doesn't seem to be anything I can do to change my life for the better. There are things I'd like to do but I can't afford to do them. And there's no one to do anything with. Group therapy helped me in the past but there is none in this area. I read books all the time but I'm getting tired of that. My life just really sucks and I don't see that changing as long as I'm living here.

[Cb1963]

I really feel for you, and by the sounds of things you are over in America? Sometimes we can become to reliant on these so called 'professionals' and reading from what's going on to you everything that has happened to you has dragged you down into a deeper spiral of depression or the covid virus has created more problems than what you expected, and sounds like your finances have taken a hit,and losing your husband is a massive heartache for you, and having no transport, and moving into a care home are all things that have now probably taken away your freedom,and you may feel trapped in this care facility, and you may not feel ready for this establishment, especially now knowing how frustrated you are ,is there any way of moving back out, otherwise this maybe causing you issues, or you'll be feeling trapped, or perhaps try looking to join a local church organisation,do you really want to be thrown a load of tablets, when really its the environment around thats causing you the problems, and no amount of medication will sort this out, its sounds like you need human interaction, and a person with a brain, I hope that you get some more replies, as I really hope that people give you a little more encouragement and advice, I know this virus situation has been terrible thing,and isolating from people is the safest thing to do,so stay safe, and I'm quite happy to chat about most things, take care .

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Hi, sometimes there are no easy solutions and no quick fixes. And I know how so much depends on money. I'm almost 50 and right now I've moved back to live with my parents and I'm barely surviving on disability. My mom who is in her late 70s, she has a friend who's in her 80s who decided to move out of an assisted living place because she didn't like it there. Do you have any family who can help you and what is your financial situation like??? At any rate, right now because of this coronavirus pandemic it's not the time to make any major decisions, a lot of people are out of work and are online or reading books right now. It's rough on everyone.

[Mary-intussuception]

Don't give up hope. There is help out there, it's finding it . . .

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