Obsession and desperation and drama

[Pieces99]

When you first meet someone, you get to know them, you develop a bond and so on. But their first impression doesn't hit you as an obsession or desperation. I think my point of general view of a person is that if he or she is of descent behavior, I'll present myself as a friend but when the drama comes in I take a one way train to get out of it. In other words, I may push people out of my life. But the actual thing is that I love myself from the very beginning and I like to keep the balance and maintain my peace of mind. Now if anyone has a problem with that, I tell em to fuck off!!! I would love to give significance to someone special but not at the cost of my peace of mind. Because I should prioritise myself. I have had hurt some but I have always been keeping my views in front of them. I don't know it's my fault that they exaggerate the friendship despite me being always clear to them. I tried, I tried to be nice and helpful but when you realise that the person is getting obsessed, desperate and being unreasonable I can't help but push them away with harsh words. And you have to do it otherwise it scares you that the dark clouds of desperation lingers over your head and you didn't stop it when you should have. Now I don't know if I did right or wrong but at least I'm not suffering and able to keep my peace of mind!

I hope it's not confusing what I wrote.