What does it feel like to be you?

I was watching a pretty amazing movie called "the help" because I'm not feeling too hot today, and one of the last lines in the movie the lady was talking about how no one had ever asked what it felt like to be her. Given its a movie but she said it made her feel free to tell the truth about that question. So what does it feel like to be you?

[Hidden]

Also, sorry I haven't responded to anything since yesterday, I will get around to it. But I've been laying in bed basically all day

[zperry4]

Rollercoaster mixed with funhouse where the highs of loving and caring for people are not at all how you expect them to be and lows that aren't profound in any way and just make you want to stress eat. I feel crazy a lot of the time, then other times I feel really smart and well--observing of the world. A lot of the time these feel useless when I can't actually seem to affect change and make connections in life. Other times I just make myself laugh at the dumbest things and truly enjoy the company of others. I'm actually funny underneath the addiction, OCD and depression. Feel like I've never gotten the chance to build myself as a person, to grow up. In the moments where I do, I feel much less anxious and more in control of what I can. At all moments though, grateful for places like this and people like you, so thanks for the question.

[Hidden in reply to zperry4]

I could relate to this in a few ways. And I can definitely understand everything you're saying. Thank you for taking the time to respond, and you're more than welcome. I don't think I've had someone tell me they were grateful for me (if they have I don't remember it) , So I truly appreciate that.

[zperry4 in reply to Hidden]

Yeah for sure, how's the day been?

[Hidden in reply to zperry4]

It's been ok. I have a sinus infection or something happening. And I've been on the phone with my mom because my dad has heart issues and is in the hospital. Oh and I have the lovely smell of a dead mouse or something creeping it's nasty way through the house. Lol. Gotta love it. How has your day been?

[Sasical]

Mmm what an interesting question... It sometimes feels good to be me and then it sometimes feels bad to be me. Sometimes all within one day or sometimes even within one hour.

As I get older the highs are not as high and the lows are not as low.

I have learnt that our thoughts create our reality, so I choose to ignore bad thoughts and concentrate on the good ones. This is one of the few advantages of getting older and wiser.

Hidden I wish for you that tomorrow will be a better day x

[Hidden in reply to Sasical]

Thank you so much for this! And I'm glad to hear it gets somewhat better as we get older. I'm so thankful I haven't gone to a really low point in a really long time. It was, at one point, normal for me to feel suicidal almost daily. And I haven't felt like that in years now. I do get down, but I also have many more good days! Thank you for sharing this ♥️

[Hidden]

Right now or in general?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

In general lol

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

In general, I'd say a roller coaster of ups and downs, zigs and zags and lots of loops.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

What stinks about this is that rollercoasters at an amusement parks that have all these things are fun and exhilarating. Yet with life it's hard. Good for you for not giving up!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

I never thought about it that way. You are so right. What do you think, should we boycott all rollercoasters?

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

😂 that's not a bad idea!!

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

How are you feeling today, btw? Better, I hope.

[hypercat54]

Invisible, alone and not needed.

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

I hate where you're at. I used to feel EXACTLY the same way. Now it's more unheard instead of invisible, and being here has shown me I'm not alone in this, and the needed part... Well I still feel this some days. But personally my own belief is that you're here for a purpose, and until that purpose is fulfilled you will be here. So I hope you feel like you're not invisible because I'm here talking to you, you're not alone, this whole community is here fighting similar battles, and you obviously are very much needed, hence the whole purpose thing 🤗

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. The reality of it is I am in my 60's, my previously good physical health has declined noticeably in the last 5 years so I can't do much now. I am retired.

I don't have a partner or kids and my parents are long gone. I do have sisters but for various reasons I see very little of them (was going to say more but won't as this post is unlocked and can appear in full anywhere on the net). I do have friends and a social life and volunteer, but spend most of my time alone online, and watching YouTube.

I'm basically just marking time until I pass.

[Funkyfaerie in reply to hypercat54]

I'm sorry to read you feel this way. You should talk more to us.

I feel like you a lot of the time, but for me I seem to wallow in feelings that don't exist, for example I feel I'm not needed, but I probably am.... ❤️

[hypercat54 in reply to Funkyfaerie]

Haven't got the energy for a lot these days, including talking.

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

I need you!!😊 You are an awesome person!! Don't ever think you're not!!

[kenster1]

lost stuck trapped bewildered but always hopefull.

[Hidden in reply to kenster1]

Oh my gosh, I feel trapped all the time!! I hate it. It's like my soul wants out of my body, but the reality is that it's not going anywhere until I'm no longer physically alive. So it's almost like torture. I am curious about the lost part, why do you feel lost?

[kenster1 in reply to Hidden]

everything in my life over the last few years has been for everyone else`s benefit mine has been on hold and I`ve lost my way being hopeful as this part is 99 percent going to be over soon but what sort of world will I be facing.there is a chance that soon things could turn for the worse as I will have to much time to dwell on things from the last few years but I suppose that`s for another day.