My Depression and Anxiety

[bostiemama23]

Hi my names Nichole, I'm 33 years old. I have been dealing with depression and anxiety for years. I feel like the past 3 or 4 years it has gotten worse. I feel like I don't even know who I am anymore. I feel empty inside. I worry about everything even if its out of my hands. I've tried all kinds of different medicines but honestly I haven't really felt like any of them help. I'm very sensitive to medicine it always seems to give me some kind of side effect. I feel like with the constant worrying, anxiety and depression it takes a toll on my daily life. I'm tired all the time. I've thought about going to counseling numerous times, I'll make the appointment but then I find myself just not wanting to go, I'm not sure if I'm embarrassed to talk to someone or ashamed. I have two beautiful kids and I want to be the best mom I can, but when I feel this sadness, I feel like I'm letting my kids down and letting the depression, anxiety and worrying win. I talk to my mom a lot she is like my best friend or I'll talk to friends and I feel like they don't understand how someone like me can feel this way. "Pretty girl, two amazing kids, good job" how can you feel this way? I don't think they understand I don't want to feel this way but its how I feel.

[Ambien1711]

Have you ever read about "Soul Loss?" Please google it! ALSO, MANY counselors are offering telehealth or phone visits! SO you wouldn't have to leave your home. Check to see if you can find one! I feel just like you do and have an amazing hubby, two wonderful cats and a 15 yr old daughter. I am 34. I also get told Im pretty even tho I am Plus Size. A lot of peeps would kill to be me. Middle-class also. But just have this emptiness inside. Can you trace it I any grief or trauma in your life? Sometimes getting to the source helps. I wish you well and as we are the same age, maybe you can write me sometime (if you feel like it.) Smile! ; ) You just made a new friend!

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I can relate! If you ever wanna chat feel free to PM me