Damn you anxiety !!

[BrokenWings83]

The lovely little toddler that plays in her balcony, and lives across from my apartment does not know I have social anxiety. She randomly says Hiii, Excuse me.... and says random things to me. I wasn't even able to understand most of what she was saying... All the while I just stand there and smile and wave and slowly walked into apartment. She was saying ... Wait ... Excuse me .... in the most lovely voice. She didn't know what I was going through... I feel so bad about it ...

[kenny-831]

I guessing you live alone. I’m not an expert but I know anxiety is worst when u isolate urself from people. Anyway don’t feel bad about it ... especially because u identity what ur reason for ignoring her was, not that u are a rude person. Saying hello to her next time will make u feel better 😊

[Agora1]

Hi BrokenWings, sometimes doors may open for us with the simplest gestures.

The innocence of a child not knowing social anxiety but just reaching out to a kind

person, can make that first little step happen. xx

[Blackdog1]

This is very sweet.

Don't feel bad about anything.

Young children are naturally open to others.

[BrokenWings83]

Thank you all for replying.

@kenny-831: Yes, I do live alone, and fight inner demons on a daily basis. And I have actually spoken to her a few times too. And when she smiled back when I waved at her, it light me up inside.

@Agora1: I like your insight about the innocence of children. It is so true. It is just too stressful and painful for me to speak, especially across the courtyard, without having to cough out loud, so I run back indoors where I can do it in privacy.

@Blackdog1: Children are the best, and have always spoken to me without hesitation. They still do for some reason, but I have withdrawn myself from fear of how others would look at it.

[Agora1 in reply to BrokenWings83]

I hear you BrokenWings, maybe not today xx