Im feeling so dumb right now to have felt like our friendship was so “real” or strong. Because it made me feel like a relationship was the next step as he slowly nudged us into a relationship and I went with it. We started out as friends in my eyes. I didn’t even see him as someone I intended to date. We could just talk about anything and shared some similar views on life. I felt like he was someone who would be a really cool male friend. Sooner than later though, he asked me out. I agreed to go out with him a few weeks after he started asking me out. I was a bit surprised and just never had dating in mind when we first met. He had a nice smile but I think some of his insecurities showed from the first day I met him. I ignored what I saw and ended up dating him. Now I’ve decided to leave him for some of the things I observed from day one of us meeting(as friends).
I ended up communicating with him again recently and he’s doing dumb things to get my attention. I fell for it and now beating myself up for being so gullible.
One of the main issues with him, now realizing his insecurities is that he does silly/immature things to get my attention. When he noticed that I wasn’t giving him attention as I would’ve if we were on good terms, he started doing stuff like calling or telling me vague pieces of information or saying he was going out of town then waiting for me to give him a certain response/reaction.
When I wasn’t very responsive he asked me why didn’t I check on him or call him to find out his whereabouts etc. Just today he texted telling me good morning and that he hopes today is a great day for us both. It’s pointless and I just said thank you so I won’t seem petty by ignoring him but it looks like I’m gonna have to ignore and/or block him because it only makes me miss him a bit when I hear from him still. He kept doing nice gestures for me even after I broke up with him recently. So because I haven’t blocked him or anything I’m getting anxious about blocking him and us getting our belongings from one another’s places. This is all so annoying and I wish I blocked him before now. Goodness...!
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