I'm a little annoyed at myself because I had so much more to complain about but then I had that stupid epiphany. Ok, not so much an epiphany as word association with past trauma memory. "Suffocating" was the trigger word. It set me off because once upon a time someone got really mad at me at something I said and, as we all know, you cant keep talking if you cut off their airways. LOL.
But as with most feeling, it was more the accumulation of a lot of things than just a single one. It has been a really long, tiring and nerve wracking day and that dumb flashback was the shiny red cherry on top. I just needed to take a moment to stress cry, then take a step back and evaluate my thoughts to see if what triggered my emotional outburst was TRULY caused by the newest sequence of thoughts and memories OR if it is a problem/issue that has multiple ignition points. I dont have answer today and I doubt I'll have one tomorrow BUT I have faith in my tireless background brain and I know I'll figure out an answer that will make sense to me some day.
New York City Trip
Im going crazy pt2
Anyone else get an irrational fear that they're dying/about to die?
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