Another Betrayal

[Freedom57]

Trust your gut ladies. I don't have many memories of my childhood except a few that are like images of domestic violence between my parents. I remember being afraid a lot, and holding my feelings of hurt inside that turned into anger, and shame

Fast forward to age 22, I unknowingly married a Narcissist, and was with him 31 years until he passed

Then four years later, I didn't see the red flags, and married another Narcissistic. Within the first two years, I left him three times. I thank God I had the courage and sense to leave 2/28/20

I became close to an Uncle that was like a Father, and a friend. During one of my separations he took a rode trip to Alaska with me last summer (two of my sons live there) Two days ago on Mothers Day, he took me for a ride on his motorcycle and says to me, "I'm a dirty old man, I like to look at your breasts. I responded that he shouldn't talk to me like that, then says cancel what I said. I told him he should apologize, and he said he was sorry. Then I told him I was going to discuss his comments with my counselor to which he replied, go ahead. Two weeks ago he said he wanted me to be his concubine. I wasn't sure what that meant, so I looked it up, and confronted him but he denied knowing the definition. I'm sickened that I trusted this creep, and believed him when he said he wanted the best for my life. I've blocked him, and have ended this relationship. I believe now he was trying to groom me to be his partner.

I must unknowingly wear a sign that says use, and abuse me but I'm so grateful I have a great therapist I'm working with. Learning to trust what I see, hear, and feel while also building a fence to protect myself from future predators.

I hope I can help others by sharing my story. If you think you can fix your man you're wrong. All these men I've been with wanted power, and control which was abusive. If I've described your relationship find your courage to leave. Now my adult children are dealing with the repercussions of the bad marriage their parents role modeled for them.

I refuse to live as a victim even though others have victimized me.

[CourageousCloud]

Oh man! Same here, girl. I've been through very similar experiences. I'm so glad you're free! A couple nights ago, I found a YouTube channel, Lisa A. Ramano. She's a survivor of narcissistic abuse, but has managed to turn it around. Her videos are extremely informative. I was so impressed by what she posts, I can't shut up about it. Check her out and I think you'll be pleasantly surprised. I plan to watch everything she has to offer. Kudos to you ❤

[Freedom57 in reply to CourageousCloud]

Thanks for your message, I will watch Lisa A Ramano, I need to learn more

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Fair point, the whole uncle thing.. ew. What a perv, Narcarcisam is a bed character trait. One I miss the signs of so far.

Good you have a great therapist positive mental well-being is what it's about.