I need friends

[sophie_dancer1]

i'm almost 100% sure that i have depression, and it kills me inside, im broken, empty and no one ca fix me, because they think that im okay, as long as i say the right thing, give a big fake smile, and act the right way, they assume that im fine, but i just wanna kill myself

[MarieHZ]

I’m sorry you’re feeling like this! I’m feeling pretty crappy too! Please don’t kill yourself. Things will get better! For all of us!!!

[kenster1]

hi Sophie and welcome to you sorry to hear of your suffering you can be fixed and you can heal and you can be fulfilled rather than the feelings of emptiness.most of us if not all probably carry the same fake smile and everything else that goes with depression but with the right support and plenty of dedication you will again smile for real.

[Mary-intussuception]

Hi

How are you feeling now.

Are you able to speak to either of your Grandparents?

If your Grandmother thinks you are fine vould you speak to your Grandfather?

Could you tell them about your brother?

I think I would ask your Grandmother for a chat in private and tell her that you are not fine and there are things you want her to know.

I would want to know if I was your Grandmother.

[26Savage]

Jesus Christ

Don't do that !!

It's not you it's your mind playing with your head.

OMG!!!

[JohnPB]

Sorry to hear about your situation. There is a proverb that is thousands of years old that states in part, " Even in laughter the heart may be in pain..." I had lived under a cloud of darkness for many years and am now better. I had felt like killing myself and also most succeeded. I am thankful to now being enjoying a life that I could not have imagined during that dark period. Hang in there. You have many people on this online community who wish they could be there in person for you. You are not alone. If you believe in God, remember that He is still there when we are in a dark, lonely emotional place. There is an old song from the 1960's called, "The Sun ain't gonna Shine Anymore." Fortunately, the sun will shine once again in your heart as you hang in there. There is a hymn called, "It's darkest before Dawn." Here are some of the words.

It's always darkest before the dawn,

Don't be discouraged but carry on,

He'll not forsake you, the sun will break through

It's always darkest before the dawn.

He knows your heartache, He understands,

Just put your problems in His great hands,

No trouble meets you but in His will,

He's not forgotten, He loves you still.

[Hidden]

You need medical attention. You could be depressed for many reasons. You do not necessarily have depression, but you certainly have a medical issue. Get medical help as you would for any other injury or illness.

[sunandbutterfly]

Hello Sophie, So sorry to hear of how you are feeling. Are you familiar with Lacey Sturm?youtu.be/mLmLETot2x8(Not working as expected?) This is her story and I hope that it will be helpful for you.

As another poster urged, please tell your family, tell someone that you trust so that they can help you to get the assistance that you need.

Your life is valuable, though you may feel lonely and isolated at this time. You are not alone. God is calling out to you. He sees beneath the mask, through everything that you are portraying into how you are really feeling, thinking, and doing. I would encourage you to reach out for some professional assistance, but also to cry out to Jesus and tell Him how you are feeling. Maybe some of these would help?list.ly/list/1EXe-when-you-...

[weegmack]

Hey there. I’m so sorry you feel so terrible.

I often feel like you do - like there’s nothing to live for. And the pandemic isn’t helping. But you are valuable and it will get better. Are you getting any help or had any in the past? Please keep in touch - you can message me privately if you like xxx

[TailWags]

Every body needs friends. I feel like i have burned mine out lately. So i turned to.this place. One thing about this place is you know therecare people who understand. They have been in the same place you are now. Talk to a help line crisis line your doctor. Thetr is help.

[Ubud2021]

Sorry to hear about this.

But if your not completely open and honest, no one will help. You can’t say the “right thing” or smile. If it’s your regular doctor, saying that’s what you need to do to get by, then it’s time to see a psychiatrist.

[stormyrose]

Dear Sophie, Please know that MANY people love and care for you, these are sad and scary times, and you are not alone in your feelings....This, too, shall pass, and your life is too precious , you can reach me at [e-mail], if you ever want to talk. I am here for you. You have a friend in me, much love, Mary

[Rachel2535]

I was very good at faking life. I hid my depression for 25 years. Until I attempted suicide. That was such a horrible mistake I wasted so much time. I have been free of depression for over 10 years now and I can tell you it is worth getting help. Depression is such a hard place to be in. Please know people can help you. You are not lost forever. I thought that too but God picked me up and brought me out of the pit of depression that I spent so long in. Thank you for reaching out here. If you are up for it got to thehopeline.com. They have awesome resources. Praying for you. -Rachel