Need good friends

[Estherblue]

Hi everyone, its been a while since i posted, so i have been dealing with series of depression and low self esteem. I use to be a very independent person, i prefer to be on my own, than be around fake friends, and i have lots of them. But recently i have lost my sense of independence, i have low self esteem, go through series of depression, cry all the time, because i have no friends and don't know how to make friends. The 2 friends i have around don't like to hang out with me, they say bad things behind my back, like i am boring, weird, too uptight a loner. They act like they care about me but they really don't. I am always there for them, when they need me and when they are better i never hear from them again, but they are never there for me. And for a while i stayed away from them and decided to be on my own. But recently, my depression keeps getting worse everyday, my mind keeps telling me am not good enough, am not worth it, i keep drowning in low self esteem. Then i decided to go stay with a friend (fake friend) to avoid being alone and overthinking. At first it was all fun and interesting until recently i discovered that she was still saying bad stuff about me to other people, while acting like we were great friends. Don't know what to do, i know i should leave her place and go back to mine, but am afraid of being alone. pls help

[dore13]

Do you see a medical professional for your depression? If so, you need to address these issues and get help for the negative spiral your in. Also, there is a website called DBSA (Depression Bipolar Support Alliance) it is an online support group that is free. You can go to meetings online, and if there is a meeting in your area, go in person. I find it very helpful to talk with others who have the same issues I have, because they understand, and don't judge.

[pink318]

I’m sorry you are going through a tough time. I have a friend who is going through anxiety, she decided to join a life group and she found it very helpful. Now that she is surrounded with people who speak hope to her, it makes her feel less lonely and feeling better. I hope you can also connect with a group that you can meet in person. Please check also with a doctor and talk about how you feel.

You are not alone, we are here for you. Please stay strong. You are in my prayers. Keep us posted. God bless.

[Estherblue in reply to pink318]

Tnk u so much

[tmjourney]

I will pray for/ with you! I’m also always here if you want to talk! It can be really hard to find good friends who are going to support you. I have had the hardest time finding and keeping true friends as well. Just remember that it does not matter at all the number of friends we have and that we don’t have to have many friends. You would be surprised at how many people feel alone and like they don’t have friends. Even the ones who are constantly surrounded by people. God is going to bring people into your life that are a blessing to you. Don’t be discouraged God bless you

[Estherblue in reply to tmjourney]

Tnk u so much, really feel much better with your advice