Derealization??!?

[SxufferingSxoul]

What the actual heck is going on with me.. I have never felt this horrible before.. it was so sudden, started a few days ago. Of course I went to the ER and they said everything was perfect. It’s basically these multiple weird sensations in my head and eyes, I cannot describe what they are but I have actually never been so scared in my life, it has taken the tiny bit of my joy left, out of my life. In addition to that, I get the feeling that I will be like this forever. Ok so basically, I feel like I will go crazy, it’s not a feeling that stays for a few minutes and goes away. It’s there NONSTOP. It’s gotten to the point that I am now convinced that one day I will end up in a mental asylum and no doctor will know how to treat me.. Please tell me this won’t stay forever.. I am constantly worrying that these sensations are the beginning signs of psychosis or simply me going insane. I’d rather have the good old symptoms I complained of in this discussion forum at this point! I HAVE NEVER FELT LIKE THIS BEFORE! 😭 I actually can’t seem to feel happiness its like a feeling that is paralyzed in my body.. IM SCARED I DONT WANT TO STAY LIKE THIS FOREVER IM ONLY 17 I CANT SEEM TO BE NORMAL LIKE MANY OTHER PEOPLE. It angers me so much to see people being all happy! How?!’

[hypercat54]

Hi you are not going crazy as derealisation is quite common and can be treated. Have a look at the link, and also on YouTube.

en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Derea...

[Confused000]

Hi. I used to feel like this quite often too. Used to think that there are so many chances that I suffer of some untreatable mental ilness. That I'll go crazy.

And I actually wrote something about this here and someone answered saying "don't give yourself added tags". This actually is something I keep in mind ever since and helps a lot. I mean of course, there are cases in which that may be true but for me it's the anxiety of it, the fear of getting to that point. And imagining that I coule have something like that kills me. But I do try to avoid giving myself anymore tags.

Used to search symptoms online to find what mental ilness I could have and this totally doesn't help. Makes you miserable.

If you truly do have concerns about something you should face up your fears and just seek for a psychiatrist and find whether or not it's the case to worry. But please don't overthink this, trying to self diagnose. You're breaking your heart alone this way.

You are going to be ok! If you ever need to talk, I'm here.

[SxufferingSxoul in reply to Confused000]

Thank you so much for replying, it’s just this weird physical symptom in my eyes and head that I can’t seem to figure out what it is, that is making me feel like I’m going crazy. I have never felt that symptom before, but I just don’t know what it is.. I don’t know what I am feeling and so it’s causing to really worry and fear that I will go crazy or end up in a mental asylum.. It’s almost a “something is not right” feeling. Will I be like this forever?? I have a feeling that this sensation will be impossible to get rid of. I’m really... really scared.. I really want to just be normal.