Difficulty in the Safe Place

[SilentSinger55]

Music is my safe place. I write music, I play music, I sit at my piano and stare into space. It really doesn't matter. As long as I'm doing something with music, I feel like I belong. Music is where I go to express how I feel but about a month ago, my mom found out I wasn't doing well emotionally, and told me I can only write happy songs. This really pissed me off because I had been trying to tell her I wasn't doing alright through my music and she just wasn't listening. I even wrote a song about fake smiling and sang it in front of my whole school. Now, I need somewhere to go to get all of this negative stuff I'm feeling out but my music isn't an option unless I want my mom to send me away again or something.I kind of just wish I was an adult already so I wouldnt have her hovering over my shoulder. (I'm 16 btw)

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This isn’t perfect ... but download a piano app, write your lyrics in a notebook or type them on your phone or tablet. Use ear buds.

[Fisher55]

I can’t imagine that. Music is my safe space as well. I play my cello for hours a day and just stare at music and sit in my music room till I feel better. I family is just too much sometimes. I can only say, hid the sad stuff and only show your mom the happy stuff. If she can’t understand what you need specifically to help you cope then don’t tell her, just do it. Eventually she will come around I hope.

[Blackdog1]

Negative emotions are at the heart of so many great songs.

I read somewhere that the original definition of emotion was (e)nergy in motion : e-motion

Or like John Lydon (of the Sex Pistols and P.i.l.) sang : Anger is an energy

I used to have the same struggle with writing "negative" lyrics. Except it didn't come from my mother. It came from my own head.