Felling trapped

[Inthedark23]

I recently moved in with my partner of 3 years. I still go to work but my partner is working from home. This has been a huge adjustment and I knew it would be, especially with COVID-19. I have a child from a previous relationship and that adds extra stress to this move.

We’ve been trying to be quiet and considerate of him and his space. However I am feeling trapped, I have been feeling very anxious again. I feel like I am not able to do anything and my child is not able to be a child. They can’t skip, or jump or be loud. And while I know a child must behave I also believe a child should be cut some slack. There is no school, no playgrounds no place to be free and be a child. I am not feeling like this is my home. I am feeling like I am just constantly being restricted in my own home.

I have had two anxiety attacks in the past two weeks alone. I want to just run away, cry, scream and not come back or be restricted this way.

[Lonewolf0407]

Oh no! It sounds so hard! Have you tried talking to him about these feelings? Maybe you’d feel more comfortable with some type of compromise with him to where you’re both comfortable. I hope nothing but the best for all of you. If you ever feel like you just need to vent feel free to message me. Don’t hold it all inside. 💕

[Inthedark23 in reply to Lonewolf0407]

Thank you Lopezc96, I have spoken to him about it. He explains to me where he is coming from and assures me he wants me to feel comfortable as this is also my home. But I have very bad coping skills and I just spiral into anxiety, especially when I feel trapped or pressured. I should mention I was previous in a very controlling relationship and my partner was very controlling so this just feels very intense for me.

[Hidden]

I am sorry that you are feeling the anxiety right now. I understand the feeling of being trapped and how debilitating it can be. Have you tried breathing exercises? Writing out your feelings. This site is good, yet I am wondering if you journal at all.. sometimes that can be good because it will help you get out what is in your head/mind and heart and see it on paper. Sometimes it lessens or stops the spiral. Know that we are here and we hear you. Children are remarkably adaptable. I hope today is a good day for you.

[Inthedark23 in reply to Hidden]

Thanks Aktoortopa, I have a journal but lately I haven’t kept up with it. I am going to start doing it again. That has always helped in the past! Thanks again!