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[PeaceandWar]

I went on to someone’s Instagram live with them who was a public figure. I watch her on YouTube and she has connections with people who have connections with my favorite celebrity. Anyway as we’re talking she told me to share my Twitter and I did even though I shouldn’t have. I’m open about some feelings, I share that I’m “crazy”, and I also share my spiritual thoughts. I purposely don’t share my social media because I don’t want people who can see me to know my real feelings and thoughts. As we are on live I admitted my mental illness ( I hate this word and phrase) and she kind of was shocked and I immediately defended myself saying I’m not crazy. Then we started talking about spiritual gifts and things of that topic and I shared how I like fighting and releasing my aggression with mma style techniques and how one day I hope her and my favorite celebrity would come and see me. Then I got up to get my charger and when I sat back down she said something about herself and then hung up on me. After that I started overthinking. Why didn’t she say goodbye to me like she does everyone else? Did she see my background? I tried to hide it as best as I could. Was she pretending to like me this whole time? Did she feel like I was dangerous? I shouldn’t have told her I have a mental disorder ( those were my words). Know I’m still thinking about it and it was two days ago. I should’ve never asked to be in her live. I didn’t think she would actually accept it. I hate sharing. I talk too much. I knew better I was too personal. I don’t want this attention. I want to be left alone! I don’t want people following me anymore. I want to delete my pages now because I feel like I can be attacked.

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Maybe you should try contacting her again maybe she was in a hurry. Anyone who judge or cannot understand that having a mental illness does not mean you’re crazy they’re not worth the friendship. Block them and find better friends cause they’re out there.