My husband and I have been together 11 years. In high school we broke up like 3 different times for about a month each time. The last time he was in college and I was just incredibly broken. It was the day after our anniversary. The whole time we were broken up I was very sad and down. But I started sort of dating a guy I worked with you had been a close friend for awhile. It wasn't super serious for me. But for him it was. He also was in a toxic relationship and he left his girlfriend when he found out I was single. Fast forward a month. My now husband came back into my life and I pretty much dropped dating this dude within a week. He ended up going back to his toxic girlfriend. Now here we are 8 years later and I woke up this morning wondering if he is happy. A lot of his friends were really upset with me because j was his "ticket away" from his toxic girlfriend who he is now married to. I hurt him and I never wanted to. Sometimes I think about reaching out and checking on him but I don't want to create more drama. I'd like to apologize for being such a shit person, even if it was in my youth.
I wonder how he is doing.: My husband... - Anxiety and Depre...
I wonder how he is doing.
That is in the past, leave it where it is, and forgive yourself for what mistake you think you made. We all make mistakes.....So move on....Love yourself and your husband and get on with life in this threatening time. Sending Love, Big Hugs....Peace and a Happy Life......Sprinkle 1.....
You shouldn't accept the blame for being his ticket out of a toxic relationship. He chose to go back to and marry his girlfriend. We all do the best we can. As long as we go our best to be kind and supportive to each other and to learn as we make our way through life we become better people as individuals and as a community. I don't think you should reach out. We can't go back. But my question to you is "Are you happy?". If you are keep moving forward. I used to beat myself up all the time for things I did throughout my life, ways I had treated others even as a small child. But then I realized I had learned from all of those events if I was questioning how I reacted when I was five. I have crossed paths again with many of those people and realized who I am now matters far more. They were happy to see me and catch up. Please don't beat yourself up. Be safe, stay well and always do the best you can.