In the past few weeks i felt numb , not sure whats the cause, maybe acne meds, maybe the anxiety, maybe the weather ? I don't know , a close good friend of mine who i opened up to told me to do this , ofcourse after assuring me it will get better and its only temporary and i will have the support i need
I should write a list of the things that get me going in life , anything, at first i didnt find alot except the usual , health, im well off financially atleast ok , i have a few friends and family who care about me ..but i realized We take so much for granted , i spent so long finding things simple or big, that make me feel happy
Like sunny days, sitting on a balcony with the warmth of the sun on my skin
Swimming , badminton , any sporting activity is enough to get me excited eventhougn i suck a little in sports
Sleeping , waking up from a good dream , feeling that rush that you thought it was real or the comfort of waking,up from a bad dream knowing its just a dream
Long night talks with family and friends, playing board games or just watching a show or something, laughing
Pets and animals , god i love my dog , when i sleep,and he lays next to me i feel his weight on my side , especially on cold rainy winter days,
Playing instruments, piano , guitar, the endless options of music , notes, keys are so interesting to me with all the sounds it comes with
Fashion , new clothes
Working for something and seeing the progress after hard work
Helping people wheather its charity or anything, the feeling of giving back not necessarily to see them gratefuland recieve a thank you
The fact that there is limitless help options , and new things to experience, places to travel , people to meet , treatments to experience , foods , anything literally anything
Even religion wise , many people here resirt to things that guve them peace like praying which is great , whatever helps you try it ..know that regardless of how bad it is , there is a way out i cant stress this enough , we just need to live a but outside out brains and see the things that surround us every once in a while, its hard i never said its easy, i was at rock bottom more times than i can i,agine thinking i cant recover , thinking the worst case scenario is 99% a possibility , but we are easily mistaken as know those statistics in my head decrease but by bit