My first A level is in a couple days..i have done well with being relatively calmer...im sleeping well.. eating well..but im becoming more tense and anxious by the day...and i keep hearing stories about people dying daily .. especially people who are very young ..i know people who die Young usually are not physically healthy which doesnt apply to me i think ..but its still triggering..and scary..
I also keep feeling my heart beat loudly and whenever i get up the room just gets dark and i feel like fainting
Im trying to keep calm not assume things..not measure bp and pulse ..but i just feel like im very sick sometimes and i habe all these fears that I can't really share because i have no personal support system and no one wants me to try therapy anymore ...i don't know i really think im going to die from all the pressure and fear ...i know nothing is worth the fear and worrying if it means damaging my health but i wish i had the ability to control it ...i try to accept it which works alot but sometimes the fear is so intense im terrified to let it continue without going to the ER or telling my family..im just so alone because i dont tell anyone about my anxiety because all i get is "grow up" "be a man" "you're overreacting" etc..