So down

[Exhausted2018]

I don’t even know what I’m down about . Lonely a lot of the times even when I have my children. I can’t talk to them obviously about what I’m feeling. I struggle alone and it’s catching up to me .

[Poodie]

Hi Exhausted.

Me too. I know what you mean. I feel like I have some kind of rope around my chest. Something heavy that is pulling me down or sometimes just keeping me in the same place.

Do you have young children at home ? Mine are older but they do not know I am so depressed. Well, sometimes they see it however they are not exposed to it much and I like to keep it that way.

Are you sleeping enough? Eating good food? Getting exercise ? Sometimes it’s the simple things.

Can you do something special for yourself ?

Are you in therapy or on any meds ?

I and lots of other people are here for you. Answering posts and posting here has helped me . You are definitely not alone.

Take care of yourself and keep posting.

[Exhausted2018 in reply to Poodie]

Sleeping not much really .. spend most of the night tossing and turning . Kids aren’t all young most are older . But the youngest sees I struggle, it hurts ghat she sees me this way. I try to care for myself but the lack of energy.

[Poodie in reply to Exhausted2018]

Hi Exhausted.

Try to have a little talk with her. Like, don’t worry about mommy. I am tired and I am working on it but sometimes I have to just accept it and rest. Add some hope, like this will pass. Or whatever you feel is best.

My kids still remember me that way too. I think it would have been better if I acknowledged them seeing me down and had a conversation.

[LadyZen]

Some times lack of sleep and exhaustion from taking care of kids can cause us to forget about taking care of ourselves.

[Exhausted2018 in reply to LadyZen]

This is true but a lot of times I just feel no energy

[LadyZen in reply to Exhausted2018]

The last time I felt that way was in my teens and 20's. It turned out I needed therapy and medication for a couple of years. I'm in my forties now and have long since healed, but I slept a lot back then. There's so many photos of me sleeping in the background.

[Exhausted2018 in reply to LadyZen]

It’s something I have been struggling with most of my life . It get these moments where it hits me more .

[Exhausted2018]

I feel so lifeless , as much as I try to lift myself I fall so much harder.

[Exhausted2018]

Honestly it’s just the depression that gets a grip . Nothing necessarily triggers it for me . I’ve been struggling with this since I was 5 or so .

[Exhausted2018]

I’ve been in and out of therapy . Never able to connect with the “ right one” . As for medication none that has worked for me , actually have made me feel suicidal. Now I get anxieties even with the thought of trying new meds.

[Brina423]

Hi friend u are not alone u can always talk to us first of all I know I’m young but listen our own mind is our best enemy I feel alone eso since mom passed 11 months ago n I isolated myself and I thought I was alone too I joined online chat sites lol n I call people even wrong numbers and talk (my grandmas phone number ) it’s hard to take them steps I know just know we are here for u someone is always up on this site I hope u have a beautiful day

[Rachel2535]

When my four where little I had such a difficult time not talking to anyone. I’m a social person and need to talk about everything. So when I was stuck at home all the time I found myself so down until I found groups to take my kids too and talk to others going through the same things. MOPS was a helpful organization at church that helped so much. Journaling is helpful too. Praying for you -Rachel