I was diagnosed by my primary doctor with severe anxiety early last year, & I tried taking a low dose of meds (Paxil/Paroxitene), but it didn’t help and I didn’t like the side effects; I also briefly tried Wellbutrin and Remeron. My anxiety symptoms were interfering with my work, & I had to take time off.
My body is extremely sensitive to medicine. When I was taking Paroxitene/Paxil (only 5mg), I had racing thoughts, felt like I had no emotions, I felt fatigue, & I remember acting impulsively on some occasions. (The only “good” thing about Paxil is that I could sleep.) When I switched to Wellbutrin, I had suicidal thoughts, & I decided to stop taking the medicine altogether & I’ve been medication-free since July 2019.
I’ve now lost my job due to a lay-off, and I need to find another job/career. However, I still have symptoms of anxiety and I don’t know what to do. (I actually feel “fear” about looking and interviewing for a job; and, it seems that I’ve somehow lost my confidence, although I have over 20 yrs work experience).
What should I do? I’m scared to try antidepressants again, also kind of scared to go see a doctor again. I just want to be/feel normal so that I can work and be productive again.