Feeling rather down again.

[Skyblue1202]

So, I've posted on here once and to just get it out helps a lot.

I've been free of self harm for 7 months using my therapy skills. However due to physical disabilities getting worse and no help from doctors I've started to slip again.

I found this weekend d especially hard. No energy to do anything and basically just laying here. I've tried to do some enjoyable things but find my anxiety rising g when taking the dog out and my fatigue and depression whe doing my sewing and crafts and just end up giving g up.

I have called samaritans and crisis...now connections but all I got from connections is to have a bath and a hot chocolate, like that is going to solve everything on my mind. Has anyone found any other support helpful.

I dont have a lot of friends and the only family around is my husband and I dont want to burden him with all of "this". I just cant seem to stop intrusive thoughts coming in. Feel very low.

[Skyblue1202]

I know your right and he would support me. We've been through a lot with my health.

I'm going to call my therapist tomorrow and get what they call a coaching call because I wont be seeing him until friday. Also going to call my psychiatrist to try and get my appointment pushed forward. I have a plan for now it's just getting through the weekend so I can talk and make active steps forwards.

And thank you. I know I should be proud of myself but when i/we get like this it sort of goes out the window. I'm trying to be kind to myself and just take it easy as I know that if I try and do something and fail I'll feel worse about myself.

[Cloud81]

Even though I don't know you personally I want to say I'm very very proud of you. 7 months is a very long time and you kept it together. You are a strong person. Stronger than you may think. So congrats to you in this accomplishment. Although you may think you being a burden to your husband that not the case at all. For better or worse. He's been by your side and he going to continue to be there for you so don't be afraid to share with him what's going on I'm sure he is willing to help you any way he can. Sky I'm there for you in spirit all the way from Connecticut. Sending you hugs and happy thought and feeling. You got this keep up the good work. We all are here for you.

[Skyblue1202 in reply to Cloud81]

Thank you so much

[chunks16]

Try to share with your husband as he is the person who knows you best

It's a very scary place at times and exhausting but keep reaching out and well done for your recovery so far