So, I'm actually tired but it's like I don't want to sleep. I feel like I am always tired anyway so what's the point. I didn't take my meds and am just binging a show until I have to get up for school I guess. I do but I don't know why I feel like this if that makes any sense.
I know I have nightmares at night because I wake up cold but sweaty, out of breath, heart racing and with this terrible.feeling in my stomach. I hate it when more though because I can never remember my dreams. At this point, I think I'm scared to sleep because I hate that feeling.
I'm sorry. I know this made no sense. I just needed to tell someone and I couldn't think of a better place.