Pause, not True, Wait.

[smilezz]

My life is nothing like what I imagined When I Was A Kid, I Was Someone Else And Now I'm Another Person, I'm Shocked That I Can't Believe This Is My Life Right Now, And Without Realizing I Paused Everything In My Life Now Until My "Real" Life Begins, Now I Know That Because Of That Shock I'm Now Not Progressing In My life Now, In My Subconscious This Is Not Real, My Life Hasn't Begin yet, But In Real Life This is What I Got.

[smilezz]

I say it's not real because I feel like my life with depression is not my real life, so this life that I'm living now is just a temporary life, and My Real life "Thats Without depression" Is Starting Later.. Sorry if it's complicated.

[sweetiepye in reply to smilezz]

It is a bit confusing , but I remember feeling like I was in a temporary place. I think it a denial of what your going through. Therapy helped me sort it out. I don't think we're objective enough to get through it on our own.

[smilezz in reply to sweetiepye]

Yeah, Thanks. ^^

[Bluzzle]

I have felt that I have lived a lot of my life on "pause" or out of reality because of my anxiety and depression. I dont know if it is helpful, but my personal experience is that I began to start living again when I realized that my depression was something I had to work at everyday to manage. I know it will never go away, but now that Ive begun to work on managing it (with a lot of work to go) I have exceeded expectations in myself I never thought I could reach. There will always be off days or weeks where I feel like Im not living my life at all, but all of those tiny accomplishments will build and then you have to continue to remind yourself that you are indeed alive.

[jesca18]

Yes yes yes! I know exactly. This is the same way I would describe it