I would like to share this short blog I wrote recently as it made me realize the true price of anxiety.
SOCIAL ANXIETY...how much is it costing you?
Back in the day when my health was in the rut and my anxiety was through the roof, I became a hermit. All I felt 'safe' doing was retrieving into my house and sitting outside in the back yard. And even then I was not really safe from my own thoughts.
I had to cancel an annual trip with my close friends that I was very much looking forward to. I avoided any social events like a plague. Thinking about going to lunch with somebody would make my heart race. I would have a hard time sleeping if I knew I had to share a ride with somebody the next day.
Any way I could find, I would wiggle myself out of every possible situation where I had to interact, talk, look somebody in the eye or otherwise be vulnerable and risk a chance of having an anxiety episode in public.
Did I manage to avoid public humiliation? Perhaps. Did I pretend enough to appear normal? Maybe. How much did I miss out on in my life during that time? Let's take a look.
I missed out on making memories that last a lifetime. I missed out on valuable networking opportunities that would have been valuable for my career. I missed on connecting, sharing laughs, telling stories and building lasting relationships. I missed out on moments that cannot be brought back.
Be truthful with yourself. What is the real cost of your anxiety?