I live in a constant state of fog

[gilded_masquerade]

Hello,

I’m back after 7 months. I thought I was doing better but I’m getting bad again. I have made progress and I am happy about it, but I just don’t think it’s enough.

I’ve dropped out of college for the third time, humanitarian studies is probably not ideal for me and I’m struggling to figure out what exactly is my “niché”.

Since the end of the semester in December of 2019, I have seldom left the house, as of late; I have not even attempted to leave.

I work from home which isn’t terrible but it’s not like I get any tax refunds back from it. And I have a hard time keeping myself busy, and my sleep schedule is out of whack.

I currently have a coach from the bounce back program but is limited to 6 sessions and I’ll be on the 4th session next thursday. It seems like no matter what I’m told to do to help myself, I can’t. I have the tools but I don’t know how to use them...

I’ll be 25 this year, I’ve dropped out of college 3 times, I’m still living with my parents, and I feel like I’m going to be stuck like this forever.

[LadyZen]

Have you seen a therapist? I was in the worst mental state in my teens and twenties and did not even know it until through a miracle I ended up in a priest's office and he referred me to a therapist.

[Sprinkle1]

I agree with ZenithK sounds like a few good sessions with a therapist would help sort out your quandary, you sound depressed so that needs to be addressed also, depression can and will cause brain fog. So stop torturing yourself and seek the help you need. Talk to us here and we will do our best to help you. Sending courage, strength, peace of mind, love and hugs.....Sprinkle 1......

[gilded_masquerade]

sadly I don’t have the money to see a therapist and I live in a rural town that doesn’t have any mental health supports and I can’t get into the city as I don’t have a vehicle nor know anyone who would be willing to. I’m currently journaling and trying to stick with self-care but that only does so much some days...

[jesca18]

I’m in the same boat except I am 5 years older. May I ask what type of work you do from home?

[gilded_masquerade in reply to jesca18]

I have a disabled sibling and I’m his support worker, I get paid through the ministry of community supports in my area

[skidrew]

Omg my son is going thru the exact same thing but won’t go to counseling. I was there too in my college years and found a twelve step fellowship. Sober n clean 30 years and until recently no problems. Then the sh.. hit the fan. Divorce, job loss, trauma, etc. I’m doing whatever I can to get help. I just keep trying knowing this is temporary! It’s the hallway in between my next great adventure and a huge learning experience.

[CanuckAnon]

Wow that must be hard. Do you think you may be getting a bit of caregiver burnout?

Does your town have a respite service or home care even just to give u a chance to take a walk? What about the ministry do they have any services? I get rural health care and the shortcomings of no services provided....

Perhaps even a church group has something to help even as I said someone to come over so u can have a bath, go for a walk or something. It can help. I used to work in rural community health so this is why I am asking. I sense you are a caregiver who is burning out....

Journaling is 1 thing but breaks are necessary as is self care....

Just a thought to consider. Sometimes small town have services like this provided by the most unlikely people you would think. You might want to call the ministry of community supports to see if they know of anything.... even if you guys go into a bigger town for an afternoon via disabled transport.