I survived Christmas Day, but at a cost.

[Stella180]

This Christmas I was going to be left on my own but a friend stepped in and insisted I come out for Dinner with her family. 6 kids and 8 adults. As much as I appreciate them including me in their celebrations I was a little overwhelmed and it was so hard to get through those 2 1/2 hours. Another friend was admitted to hospital Christmas Eve and as someone had gone out of their way to ensure I wasn’t alone at Christmas I decided to do the same visiting their partner and taking her to the hospital. Not exactly a perfect Christmas whatever that may be, but I was able to see the positives so I’ll call that a win.

Since that day I’ve spent the majority of my time in bed. Everything is too much to deal with. I fobbed off a friend who wanted to meet for lunch today in favour of hiding under the duvet. I know I can’t go on like this and need to give myself a kick up the backside but I don’t feel like I’ve got the strength right now. It’s like I built myself up to get through Christmas Day and now I’ve got nothing left. I’m not feeling emotional as such, more numb and disconnected. Lacking energy, motivation and interest in anything apart from sleep

[PrimoB]

You just described my feelings exactly. So much work(mentally) for the holidays now I’m just exhausted! Relaxing and watching movies to calm myself after all the “excitement”. Good luck getting motivated. I’m trying too!

[Agora1 in reply to PrimoB]

Me too!

[Ckd123 in reply to Agora1]

And me!

[Samson1953]

WOW. i got overwhelmed reading yr adventure. of course u need to rest a day or two. you are an amazing person helping out a friend. take deep breaths watch funny movies

u will get your self going again.

[Windy101]

I would be in the same state had I spent Christmas visiting people. It can take its toll! You were kind to spend time with your friends, especially the one in the hospital. I think it's okay to rest and renew - sounds like you just need to recharge your drained battery.