Heart Shattering

Today has one the worst day of my life. As I'm here in my room still trying to wrap my head around all that happened. Around six in the morning I hear my dad screaming outside my door my mom was in accident I try to tell myself it's a lie. I answer to him saying im up and still trying to figure what was wrong. I get out the room but I can't bring myself to ask if she is ok I just keep hearing him say over and over your mom was in an accident. I try to shut him out saying I heard you. His reply is I'm sorry but that was not what I wanted to hear. Everything was happening so fast. All I know is that my shaking bad and trying to figure out what I can do. And the part hard is calling 911 because even though she was in a car accident she had time to call my dad and tell him what had happened to her. I have called 911 several times in the begining of this year but calling for my mother has been by far the hardest. All I know is that I'm able to tell them where she is at but not if she is alive. What comes next is the worse moment and memory I will have forever. After hanging up with 911 the cellphone rings and it's her my mom. And let me tell you hear her in pain and scared was the worst nightmare feeling ever. She is screaming on the line where is your dad and in tears I tell her he is one his way there. She is screaming and I'm screaming to her to hold on to life and not to give up on me. I fall to my knees crying in pain and horror ask God not to let her die. I'm mad at him and that nobody is there to help her. As I'm on the line I hear a guy asking here if she is ok. I hear her say my waist and chest hurts. And I'm at home trying to control what little power I had. But I couldnt next I hear my dad in the line saying Ali I'm here everything is ok. And I'm on the line screaming for someone to tell me how bad things are. The call ends and on my knees still crying punching the floor screaming at God why. All I know that thought all that I call me best friend and tell her everything and she tells me get ready I'm taking to your mom. But I answer my dad and bother are there. after hanging up that call. I get a text from her telling that her husband who was on his way to work had just seen the car. She told me it's really bad all the front part is lost and im reading this trying really hard not to breakdown again. But all I know is that GOD was with her all the way because she came out with only a scratch and some bruises. The paramedics told her how lucky she had been because one the road there had been so many accidents and all were fatal. Yes my mom is alive and in our house resting try to get over all she went through. But I'm not ok hearing her though the phone has broken me in a way that I don't think is possible to mend back.

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Thanks I am trying my best watching movies

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Hey. Your Mom's still very lucky. You got traumatized, anybody would with what you just went through. Take your time. Don't rush it.

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Yeah I know I just want to fall back into my depression state

[fauxartist]

You all got a terrible fright, and I'm glad she's going to be okay. It's always so life affirming when we have a crisis like that in our lives. It's a good time to give mom a little TLC now when she's home, it will make you feel like you’re helping her and that can have a calming effect on some of your fears of what just happened.

[hypercat54]

Hi you are suffering from the after effects from such a traumatic experience so no wonder you feel so awful. Give yourself time to recover and take it easy. It's shock, but I am so glad your mum is alive and well. Hugs xx

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Thankyou all for the support its one of those moments when it seems I'm all alone. Having only one friend that understands me is quite hard made me realize a lot about my life.