Feeling Quite Lost....

[Mschuste725]

Recently I’ve been feeling honestly very frustrated and confused. I’ve been having overwhelming feelings of anger and hate. You see, one of my ex-friends from high school is basically in the same major and goes to the same college as me, and over the past 2 quarters have been constantly comparing myself to him, to the point where I lashed out.

He’s been pissing me off to the point where I’ve been having thoughts and basically praying that he gets addicted to something or drops out or something!! I know this is extremely unhealthy to get this attached to someone who no longer cares for you and thinks you’re a dick, but Idk what else to do.

I have no one at college to turn to or can trust, I have made literally zero close friends in college so far, and it hurts. It honestly hurts.

Does anyone have any advice on how I can try to forget about him, or at least not panic or feel hating emotions when I see him?

[Indiegal]

I understand the feeling and have also been very angry at a lot of people lately. It's tough when you can't escape that person. It might be good to try to get involved in some groups or activities that will hopefully be an escape from him. College is the one place where you have that many opportunities to find things to do that can distract you. In hindsight I wish I would have taken advantage of them more when I was in school.

Also, there should be free counseling services at your school. It made all the difference for me to talk with someone and even just vent about what you're going through.

Good luck to you!

[sunandbutterfly]

As Indiegal mentioned, It may be worthwhile to visit your school's health center and seek counseling (licensed counselor?).

One thing that helps me when I dislike someone is to pray a blessing over them. Another thing that helps me is to offer kindness to people that do not treat me well. (Not an original idea, comes from Proverbs ).

Also, you may consider the book Boundaries by Henry Cloud. Hope something of this will be helpful for you. Please let me know if you would like additional resources.