Feeling alone

[Orangeblossom85]

I would like to have this friend that I can tell my truth and listen to their response. I feel very alone. Anytime I tell what I feel... people quit. For years I had this strategy of never telling the truth about me. Now I have such a tremendous need to tell what I feel. Yet, I don’t have any friends.

My boyfriend gets petrified a second later I tell: I’m not good. My parents and my sister they just receive my messages but never respond.

How do I share my pain? How do you talk about your problems and pain?

[Hidden]

You can talk to people on here. I've found a few people who understand and I talk to them. I would like to talk to you.

[Starrlight]

I’m here to listen. Talk away! 😊

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you Starlight. I used to come to this forum to tell my secrets and process my pain. I’ve been slowly getting worse for over a month. I believe that I’m back to my full depression. Skipping work, sleeping over 16 hours, not drinking, not eating, basically never leaving the bed.

[Starrlight in reply to Orangeblossom85]

I just read your bigger thread and see you’ve been through a lot. I think you will be healing more and more, treat yourself well no matter how hard, and things eventually will improve I think. Keep talking when you need to. I’m here to listen. Wishing you beautiful moments today. ❤️

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you Starlight, year ago this forum gave me a strong boost and help get back to work. I head a good year, felt up and down but really noticed the difference. Now it seems I’m back to my dark world. I would like to give up but still have the hope that I can actually get better and enjoy this life

[Starrlight in reply to Orangeblossom85]

Defidently don’t give up. You can do it. You did it before, you can do it again. I’m struggling and being happy isn’t something that comes easily to me so I understand that fear but we have to try to believe things will work out because the more we believe the better the chances of the universe listening to us and pushing us in the right direction.

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Starrlight]

You are right, Starr! It’s just a matter of keeping through it all.

[Warrior50 in reply to Orangeblossom85]

🤗 🤗 🤗 💜 💜 💜

[LilyAnnepuppy]

There's a whole community here who will understand where you're coming from. You don't have to be alone unless you want to. Keep posting and let us know how you're feeling

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to LilyAnnepuppy]

Thank you LilyAnne, this is a great and powerful community. Helped me not once. I’m so glad that I found it

[Rachel2535]

There are so many things I have not been able to talk to people about because some of it they just can’t handle. I have found that journaling is a huge help. Also praying and giving my problems to God is my saving grace. You are not alone though many of us feel like this. Reach out to a counselor, pastor or mentor. I am praying for you. -Rachel

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Rachel2535]

I used to do it, Rachel, giving everything to God. I believe it has helped me a lot. I was doing great throughout last year, there would be days in which I would it even remember that I’ve struggled at all in my life. Somehow now, I need to hear back. I would like to have a conversation and to listen to advice. I think advice and empathy is what I need the most now.

[Rachel2535 in reply to Orangeblossom85]

Do you have someone you can talk to? I know there are some great Christian organizations that have pastors and counselors you can chat with for free that might be helpful

[CantThinkOfAName]

I know how you feel. I'm not any good at talking about me, my problems or anything like that. But sometimes I NEED to share. And then I feel all lonely, because there is noone who would understand me. At least I think so.

Do you have no friends at all? Or at least friends in general, even tough you feel like you can't talk to them about your problems?

I've leanred that at least on this forum I think you will experience a lot of support. So don't feel alone, we are all with you here. We share your burden or understand what you go through. You are not alone ♡

[Warrior50 in reply to CantThinkOfAName]

💜 well said Can’tThinkOfAName 💜

[Braveheartman]

There are so many support groups including this one. Talk to a therapist or counselor to start. I assure you they won’t quit you and you can express and share what your feeling without judgment. They want to help you. Also they have access to many support groups for whatever you may be going through. When you find people who are dealing with what you are you will no longer feel alone and begin to heal. God bless and prayers your way!

[Hidden]

You can share with me anytime you want.. I'm here for you.... it's not easy to open up yet for yourself it's the best thing for you to do...I'll listen, if you want shoot me a pm....

Sparkles & dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy & hugs Orangeblossom85!

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you Lisa, I’ve missed your trucks of love!

[Hidden in reply to Orangeblossom85]

It really is my pleasure... Haven't seen you around much....go for it and pm me, I'd love to get to know you better... hold your head up...you're special, only one you out there!

Sparkles & dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy & hugs Orangeblossom85!

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Hidden]

I will do it when I feel a little bit better I really don’t like to pour negativity all over

[Hidden in reply to Orangeblossom85]

No rush... you do it when you feel comfortable...

Sparkles & dump trucks of groovy love, peace, light, joy & hugs Orangeblossome85!

[Booklover0219]

We are here to listen to you.

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Booklover0219]

Last year this forum brought me up to life! Only because of people here I made it back to work!

[Booklover0219 in reply to Orangeblossom85]

That’s wonderful! Hang in there and keep talking and also don’t forget to be a friend to yourself. Sometimes I give myself pep talks or talk myself through an issue that I am struggling with.

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Booklover0219]

:)) that’s a wonderful advice!

[Dolphin80]

How are you doing now? I hope better!!

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Dolphin80]

Much much better! I know though that I struggle with giving trust and I am pretty afraid to share my feelings and fears with others, the closer the person the more fear to uncover! I gain a lot of insight and I found it extremely helpful to read through the forum, participate, give hearts, talk in private chat. I have also made some close friends here and I try to share my fears, anxiety and flooding with them over the text messages. Very helpful to know they are there for me!!

[Dolphin80 in reply to Orangeblossom85]

Oh that’s so wonderful to hear! Do you have depression/anxiety? I do. Have had both for years.

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to Dolphin80]

Of course! My stress and anxiety will always be there, now when I’m depression free, I believe that I will be able to befriend them and turn them into assets!

[Dolphin80 in reply to Orangeblossom85]

Oh cool. How do you do that?

[Iammesues]

You raise a really interesting point. Wanting someone to talk to is a natural instinct, but not having someone who is an open listener is also common. I don’t think most people have someone in this role in their lives. This is why we have such an obligation to ourselves which can get heavy and overwhelming, right? Finding a solid good listener is a hard task for us all. I’m still searching.

[BrooklynBorn]

I keep it in unless I'm talking to someone that has anxiety, others don't understand. I finally talked to my adult son about it recently and I'm sorry i did. Now i feel like he thinks I'm crazy. You have us to talk to. Hugs.

[Orangeblossom85 in reply to BrooklynBorn]

I totally understand you, Brooklyn! I have the same feelings but even though my mind tells me to regret it, I know deep inside me that it’s great to open up and that I have to push through it. It’s usually very hard for me to connect with the people around me but I do learn to say a bit more everyday, or at least feel it!

[Hidden]

I share my pain with my therapist 2x a week currently through Telehealth. I don't share it with my only 2 friends who are busy but we keep in touch because I don't want to use my friends as Therapist's. Certainly it's ok to confide certain things and this is only my opinion related to me and everyone handles pain differently.

I also read do crafts walk my dogs listen to music while taking a ride and do crafts like coloring, doing certain Journaling like collages drawing using my black board and white board meditation yoga...I have a room set up for just that.

It's not easy to always get motivated. That's the tough part plus I have social anxiety which I was starting to do really well at until the Coronovirus lock down. My Therapist and I have just started working on it again, trying to get out 2x week for 1 hour. 💚💙🌻🙏⚓🌞