(such a lightweight)

[torpe]

1) obsessive thought of the week

-telling my friend my true feelings for him and waiting for a mac truck carrying waves of rejection to slam into me

2) song of the week

-miss world by hole

[mrmonk]

Interestingly, I've been listening to "Violet" by the same band, recently. 🎶

I know how anxiety-inducing telling your true feelings can be -- whatever the outcome, it's always best in those situations to make your feelings known, I think. I hope it goes well for you! 😺

[torpe in reply to mrmonk]

that’s another really good song by them oh my gosh!!! oh gosh i’m erupting on the inside...thank you for the well wishes…i’m really starting to think so too!!! hope you are doing well yourself

[mrmonk in reply to torpe]

Aw, you're welcome...I've been there myself, when I was much, much younger. Aside from sleeping weird hours, I'm doing okay at the moment, thanks for asking.

Have you ever listened to Amanda Palmer and/or her band with Brian Viglione, The Dresden Dolls? I have a hunch you might enjoy her/their music.

[torpe in reply to mrmonk]

how did it work out for you? oh gosh...that can be a real pain but i am glad to hear you are otherwise well i have listened to a few tunes by the dresden dolls and i do quite like the songs of theirs that i’ve heard especially girl anachronism at the moment..your hunch proved correct!

[mrmonk in reply to torpe]

Until I met my wife, there were two people from my younger days for whom I had unrequited feelings (one of the poems in my chapbook, a poem called "The Absolute Truth," was written for and addressed to the second person) and, eventually, told them. Obviously, neither of those worked out (rejected in the most dramatic fashion of adolescence), but the third time proved to be the charm. Now, if only I had gotten the marriage part right...

Looking back decades onward, I can say with certainty that I don't regret telling anyone my feelings for them. It's the people I didn't tell that sometimes gives me pause.

"Girl Anachronism" is such a great song...manic and stormy in all the right ways. "Runs in the Family" from her solo record, Who Killed Amanda Palmer? is another one I return to fairly often.

[torpe in reply to mrmonk]

wow that is even more a gut punching and pensive poem now that i read it again with the knowing of love unrequited…it was already amazing but now sinks even deeper. oh adolescent rejection, how i still feel its sting..whatever mishap love is always calling

i totally understand what you mean...i feel so in the now thinking of a future where he moves on and i am invisible to him...

i think so too!! very specific and spiky anger even in the way she plays...somewhat neurotic...i quite like this one....god it’s so good...thank you for the song recommendation this is definitely going on my playlist!!!! wow the power of this song

[mrmonk in reply to torpe]

😺