Falling fast

[flowers77]

I joined today because I am at the bottom and I am going down further which I never thought possible. I have no support system from my husband or family and have never felt more alone. I am tired of being criticized and told every day that I am a failure or that I am going to fail. How can I succeed or fail if I can't even try?

[Hidden]

Welcome! We are all here to support you

[LiveandLetLive42]

Your family literally says that to you?? That's not right. Maybe it's time to have a serious talk with them and let them know what's going on. You definitely need their support.

[flowers77]

If I had the money I would leave my husband. I have a 4th interview tomorrow with a company so hopefully that will help, but housing is so expensive that I am not sure it will.

[Hidden in reply to flowers77]

So you’re stuck dealing with this the rest of your life? This sounds extremely unhealthy. If they won’t support your dreams, you find the means on your own. I’m hoping they are just afraid that you might get in to far over your head, perhaps money invested is a high risk, perhaps you need a business plan laid out that will help convince them. I’m sure they don’t want you to fail.

[flowers77 in reply to Hidden]

I wish that was it but I don’t think so. I wrote a 19 page business plan that the husband refuses to read. Plus a researched about 50-75 flowers that I could grow and I put them in a spreadsheet then on individual pages of what is required for them to grow like soil ph water needs sun and stuff. Then I put the cost of seeds and what i would sell the stems for. He said the property I want is too far away. But that is what I can afford 2,800 for a couple acres there of 28,000 for the same acreage here.

[flowers77]

I am going to Disney world Saturday with my mother and sister and it’s the last thing in the world I want to do. Happiest place on earth my ass. I would rather be anywhere else alone.

[8Bee]

I just joined this group yesterday as well! Although it is a different situation, I feel like I can not get the support I need from my family either. I hope we both get the support we need. Make this your own safe space. Have a great rest of the day!

[flowers77 in reply to 8Bee]

Well at least we can support each other

[gatsbysimon]

Hi Flowers! It’s so hard when you don’t have support! But the people on this website understand where you are and know that you will be able to overcome! It might not feel like it right now, but you have taken a step in the right direction. Welcome!

[Billsfriend]

Sadly a lot of us have the same problem with lack of support. As a previous poster said We will support you, and we are glad to have your support!

[Hidden]

Don’t know your history. I think texting your own limits knowing your own limits. Making that a full time job always striving to better. If you find the will the guts the courage the absolute need for self your passion and learning can take you far. It also helps with ignoring with confidence and proof of Will sends message to others. In reality you need to compete with yourself. Let their ignorance fuel your quest. Deflect with silence or confidence answer to yourself

[Camper2020]

I feel u. I've been diagnosed since 28 to now I'm 58. I wear a bunch of labels also along with criticisms. Your not alone. I also have no support system. She's when I go to family or someone I'm.close to they make me feel worse because they don't get it an it's to complicated for them to deal with it, therefore , I have had to let go of these people an it was hard very hard but they just aided my problems an not try to help. It all husts like hell. But staying away.from those who keep you sick or make you feel worse is not worth.hanging around until you get better. It's seems for me that my doctor's and meds which is madness in itself became my new family. So be it. If you can.get into a group therapy an make friend's there with those who understands can help from.feeling alone an.abandon. I've learned family can be the worst to.run to unless you are fortunate otherwise. Stick.with.your.doctors an friends. Right now I'm in.regression due to winter an meds not working an.looking.into.other.options. I live alone with.my cat an no support except here where others understand so i.dont.feel to alone or the.only one which is a help in other words I didn't fall from Mars after all. Hang in there. Do somethings you enjoy doing if you can. Il keep in touch. Try to have a positive day.

[ciley in reply to Camper2020]

liked your words

[Lazy_dog_lover]

What is different about now?

Can you go walk in the mall or a park?

Can you find a local support group meeting at a library or church? Even if you just listen, you will know you are not alone.

I have had A& D for 30 years, lost 4 jobs b/c of it, never shared with my immediate family. My cousin went the other route and is not fairing well.

May I ask what city you are nearest? I can help find groups.

[pink318]

Hello and Welcome!

I’m so sorry to hear that you are going through this. Please don’t feel alone, we are here for you. Keep posting.

Aside from online support group, do you have a group that you can meet in person. It will be helpful so you will feel less lonely and not alone. I hope you can get the help you need to stay strong. Keep us posted. Praying for you. God bless.

[ciley]

i feel like that now~so theres 2 of us, no support~~actually, i think we are looking for love, not so easy to find~i want to move back to london from which i was persecuted 7 years back, i am bored out of londpn, that another reason i feel so sodding ill~all the best to you~i bet you are a good person~it happens to the best !!