Things are going too good; something will go wrong.

All right I know this is silly but you guys know me and when I start writing I go for it. The title: For being depressed for so long, two t.v. shows that my late brother and I watched voraciously are both on t.v. now. Monty Python and MST3K are being run at the same time and my DVR is getting it all. My mood has lifted, I have laughed aloud. If only he were here with me laughing at it all; what am I saying, he is. When I laugh it is for both of us. This is great. My brother and I laughing again. Karma, that unceasing fate, will upset it all. What will happen then is what scares me. That unknown tempers my joy. Perhaps it's best not to get too happy. It'll only hurt more when the Karmic ride takes the Big Dip as it is wont to do. Though I know it was a joke one of the characters on MST3K asked rhetorically "What color is the sky in your world?" A great laugh at the time but really, once I fixated on that it was over. I went introspective, not good. Those blue skies changed color when I thought of it. The observer effect? May I apply the Schrodinger's cat paradox? When it comes down to it it's either up or down...I opened the box...

[Dolphin14]

So nice to have such fond memories of your brother.

I know that feeling. When all things line up

well I wait for the next bomb to go off.

[Hidden in reply to Dolphin14]

That is such an optimistic outlook, I never thought of it. But then I wouldn't, it takes an outside observer to point out such an obvious answer. I would have been morose the entire time waiting for the "high" to come again. In drugs it seldom does but in life, my mind is not so far gone that such as occurrence cannot happen once more, or more often? Yes! You've restored my faith in myself, at least for this little slice of happiness for the time it lasts. Thank you so much for reading my baloney and making since of it for me. You are a true friend and a valuable addition to our "staff" as it were. Take care, stay safe.

[hypercat54]

And was the cat alive or not? I love the whole paradox thing. I am very sorry about your brother but at least you have some good memories and he will always be with you in your heart.

I must admit I always worry too when things are going well coz it never lasts does it? I am an optimist by nature but life has taught me pessimism. x

[Hidden in reply to hypercat54]

But of course, who should ask about the cat but the one and only original HyperCat. Great question, right out of the box. Or not? Sorry to say it was just a metphor. But how's this: You are an optimist by nature; I wish I could say that, be that way. Unfortunately I am not. Am a genuine pessimist by nature; if good should occur I will be pleasantly surprised. And that my friend is how I live my life, not expecting good thus not a letdown because it does not occur. I was not expecting it and not surprised. If something good happens then a pleasant happy good surprise is always a delight. What I expected to see after opening the lid was what I expected.

[hypercat54 in reply to Hidden]

Ha ha. I define myself now as a pessimistic optimist 😉 x

[Hidden]

Great avatar btw...french fried potaters...why do you think karma is going to cause you to feel bad?Do you think you're doing something wrong?

[Hidden]

More of a philosophical bend actually. I am an agnostic; an atheist is, in the broadest sense, an absence of belief in the existence of deities. Some would argue the false/positive that there then must be a deitie(s) for the atheist NOT to believe in. A bit capricious and does not address the issue. While an atheist may say "The are no god(s) for mankind to thank or worship" I'm taking the middle road (others argue I cannot do so) that maybe there is a higher being, maybe not. I will not worship or ascribe the unknown (I refuse to believe in "mircales") as responsible for wars, crimes and hostilities to a supernatural entity beyond our grasp. Everything mankind does is under the control of his own mind regardless of who or what one wishes to cast onto others, especially the unknown that cannot be held for questioning. One accepts a higher being on faith alone. No one can attribute anything upon this earth to a supernatural being who brought it all into existence, AND hangs around to micro-manage? When that is proven beyond belief in a scientific manner, perhaps. Until then I blame everything on Karma. Or I can sway Karma but not change it's inevitable path. Just as one would say He exists believe it or not, I do not. I am the one who says Karma exists, believe it or not. Regardless of what I do it follows it's inexorable path, bringing good or bad. It's not whether or not I do something good or bad and deserve what it brings. Like the old saying (paraphrase) "Crap happens." Whether you've just washed your car or not the bird will fly over without care or concern and open the bomb bay doors. Nothing you can do to change that short of standing watch with a shotgun full of birdshot or moving it inside. But you will have to take it back out again. And there are millions of birds, it is inevitable. That is Karma.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

So kind of like Murphy's law what can go wrong will go wrong. I like your philosophy too. It actually comforts me when I dont believe in god because things make a lot more sense and I can take myself and the world way less seriously. When I did believe in god the world seemed distorted and out of place.

[Hidden in reply to Hidden]

Ummm, kinda sorta but not quite maybe? Murphy's Law states that anything that can go wrong will do so. A bit too pessimistic to me; in that case the world would be coming apart at the seams. Karma can be good; that is the hope that keeps one alive, chasing that dragon tail of good hopes and dreams come true. If not then it's just another day. But if you get a taste of what is good that Karma has to offer you're off again on that mad chase, still hoping and wishing...only it will never be as before. That's the bad joke Life plays on us all.

My mother and father were life-long smokers, my brother and I never. We were raised in a Christian household and did go to church when still too young to say no. However I was a curious lad (still am) and had many questions that a simple "Have faith" answer would not suffice. I did not know what faith was other than just believe as the adults have said. If they believe in the supernatural then it must be true. Until I grew old enough to begin questioning and getting the same tired answers, or lack thereof. One day my Mom asked my why I didn't believe in God. I asked her if she and dad really wanted to give up smoking? "Of course, we're trying." So if your God is all powerful why doesn't he just take away that habit? She then understood. Like the old question of why does He allow such sin, murder, mayhem, injustice to innocents? It's His way, He has a Master Plan that He only leaves vague hints written in a long-dead scroll, and that one day we will all answer to Him. Yeah I think I'll take my chances with whatever does come along. Or not. I may close my eyes for that dirt nap and never again will I be aware that I even existed. The heat from my body will escape into the atmosphere; matter merely changed form. Call it a soul if you want, at that point I'm already out of that picture and will leave the assignation to others.