My life is ******* ironic

My dad and i just had a really deep talk. Basically my dad thinks i havent had a real relationship before because he thinks im a prude (he thinks thats good because we’re religious) when in reality im terrified of the thought of a man touching me because of what happened which he doesnt know about. And now im hysterically laughing because i ****** up my one and only chance to tell him what happened all because i was too scared.

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Tell him. I was just talking about my dad who passed recently tonight.. He did not know me because mom wanted to keep the family incest a secret. He never knew why I had rebelled and had an abusive marriage and was so depressed. I never shared it with him so he never knew me at all and I never knew him. Had I to do it all over I would share it no matter what and bond with him on a deeper level. Tell him. He will understand.

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

I'm sorry for that, M. While the rest of my family hated me at least I had a good relationship with my dad. I'm sorry for what happened to you too. If there is anything I can do, let me know. Okay?

[Hidden in reply to JEG325]

Thank you. You do it already. You make me smile.

[JEG325 in reply to Hidden]

That's because you really are an awesome person!

[JEG325]

I agree with MH. Tell him the truth and he will not only understand but, he will will want to help you too. A father's love is important in a daughter's life. Let him in and let him help you heal. Okay?

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It's never too late, you'll get another chance or maybe you'll have to make one. Ask your did if you can talk and let him know everything you want to tell him. If you're afraid (which I totally understand this must be so hard to talk about) maybe plan a moment and bring someone for support. If there is anyone who you have already spoken to about it see if they'd be willing to come and be there just as a silent help.

[crowningglory19]

It's not your only chance to talk with him. Tell him you want to talk more about the deep convo you were having. Tell him it's hard to talk about so you didn't before but want him to understand better why. It's good you have a Dad you can't trust and talk deep things with. Blessings, dear. Something that helps a lot with anxiety is magnesium, it is great for your body mind and soul! <3