why do things go wrong

[Ace200]

Hi,

This past week I’ve just felt like the world is against me and idk how to deal with this. I truly do believe that my life is not the way I expected because I deserve it! I deserve the things going wrong because I must have done something wrong. I don’t know if that makes sense. I feel lost and I don’t know how to deal with this. I suffer from social anxiety, depression, TMJ, Bruxism all due to the stress that I give myself. It’s hard having a mind that constantly runs. Also, been dealing with severe insomnia and fear of going to sleep due to not wanting to make my TMJ worse and it still has gotten worse and in result of this developed severe migraines and a change in my bite. I have to deal with the severe pain that comes with TMJ and bruxism on my jaw and teeth and it’s difficult as I cannot afford to even go to the dentists for treatment as costs hundreds for treatment. I’ve recently finished university and there’s no jobs available I have applied to everything in hopes of funds to afford the dentist but nothing. It’s just a really hard time for me at the moment and I feel like I deserve to be going through this. Everything happens for a reason right?

[Agora1]

Ace200, I do believe everything happens for a reason. It's all about Timing and when you

are ready and not because the world is against you. We do however have to take the steps

forward or we end up just staying stuck in a cycle of never ending misery.

The world will let you know if you are ready for that next step. When you are, doors will

open for you that you never expected.

Right now, your mind and body are so consumed with negativity that it is taking it's toll

on your physical issues. I had the same problems at one time. TMJ, why is everyone

looking at me etc. It was my non existent confidence that allowed me to think everyone

could see through me. It wasn't until I focused on the positive things about myself that

I gained self esteem. With that I walked a little taller, breathed a little deeper and smiled.

Life became better, more manageable once I believed in myself. With security in who we

are, comes success, There is no time limit in becoming who you were meant to be. xx

[fauxartist in reply to Agora1]

Great comment... thank you.

[Agora1 in reply to fauxartist]

xx

[Ace200 in reply to Agora1]

Thank you

[TattoosMakeMeCool]

my recommendation is to keep moving forward because your fresh out of college and still have so much life left. A lot of us are past high school and college years and wish we could just go back. What we could change/do differently. You’re in that position to not have to look back because you’re in that critical period where your future could be easy or extremely hard and unsatisfying. Don’t let your mental health problems hold you back, try to get help for the ones you know you can now and work towards your dream career to get the money/insurance to further your treatments. Think of it this way if you think the world is against you now wait another 15-20 years if you haven’t gotten the help and pushed yourself . If you’ve accomplished most of the goals by then you’ll feel on top of the world instead of underneath it. I let my mental health problems get me into using drugs to self medicate not understanding if I got the help and medication I needed then I wouldn’t have wasted or went through hell for a good portion of my late teens and 75% of my 20s. Anxiety, depression etc is whole lot worse when you’re older and let it hold you back.

[Ace200 in reply to TattoosMakeMeCool]

Thank you for responding. I do agree about not wasting your twenties but I think it’s hard because so much is expected of you in terms of moving forward and sometimes feels like I’m rushing to be to get it all done. Sorry to hear about your experiences with drugs and mental health. Hope you are doing much better and got the help you needed. Sending healing.

Kind regards

[abdoashraf12]

عاني من كل الأمور التي ذكرتها ومن الجز على اسناني أثناء اليقظه منذ أكثر من 7 سنوات ولم استطع الخروج من هذه الدائره