New but not new????

This is my first day here. I ate too many banana cream pies because I'm depressed more than 99% of time. Of course I gained 50 lbs and it's here to stay. My excessive depression started 2006. I lost my job then diagnosed with bipolar then lost my house. My fiance caused building damage where child was involved and got 2 years. 2009 my boyfriend got killed by train. I've been spending excessively and have nothing to show for it. Haven't been able to work since 2014. No friends. My list goes on I know as do anyone who's reading this. Help me help me. Thanks to anyone listening.

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Rant if you need to. We listen quite well

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Thanks because that was not even half of events that have added to my stress level. 2014 I was diagnosed with skin cancer. 2016 I was diagnosed with lymphoma cancer. Had to do radiation for lymphoma. They had to make a very hard plastic cover that covered my head and shoulders so I would be still during treatments. In making it they didn't tell me I would be held in place til mold set. I lost it. Water, ativan later I finally stopped screaming and kicking. I'm female. Do not hold me in place. Before I could get radiation because it was my neck I had to have dental surgery removing 3 bottom teeth because they said radiation might crack my jaw. After one treatment I was sick. 2nd treatment I lost my voice and had severe sore throat I couldn't eat. Needless to say the next 10 treatment did not get any better. Panic attack every day. I remember this like yesterday. Not good memory. Had two more skin cancer lesions after that. 2019 determined my esophagus was half closed. Had to remove left thyroid to get to it. Outpatient. Yeah right. Woke up with drain tube and migraine. Cut is still numb. That's my depression subjects today. Actually every day. Tx for listening.

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Anytime

[NWGal]

We're here for you unconditionally.

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Thank you very much

I do know venting to new people helps because they will have different outtake on the matter. I appreciate all of you.

[Mrspjsmom]

You have been through a lot. Happy to listen. Hope things begin to turn around. In the meantime do your best to take care of yourself.

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Thank you