Really feeling lost today

[Kevin87]

I’m not sure what’s up

Ive been pretty morose the last few days. The holidays were fine but I didn’t find myself feelings much of anything for them (excitement or whatever) and now I’m just feeling an overall cloudy feeling.

I’m trying to keep my head above water by keeping busy with my work, however nothing seems to be helping. Almost as if it were a sinking feeling.

In some ways I just feel the need to say to someone today “hey! I’m feeling really depressed right now!!” Just so I can get it out but I’m not sure what good that will do. The other issue is that I can’t really pinpoint why I’m feeling this way lately.

I need a therapist.

[mockingbird4]

I am feeling the exact same way. I wish I could give you advice to fix it. But sadly, I am in the same boat. Know that you are not alone. The holidays generally make me extremely happy, but this year, i wasnt excited at all. And sense then, I have just been down hill. My husband constantly asks whats wrong and I cant tell him whats wrong because I dont know whats wrong with me. I just know that i am sad.

[Kevin87 in reply to mockingbird4]

That really sucks, I’m sorry you’re feeling this way as well. What have you been doing to keep yourself occupied? I keep feeling like crying but there’s nothing to cry over at all..such a strange emotion today

[mockingbird4 in reply to Kevin87]

Honestly, I have cried. I have cried more in a week than I would like to admit. But I have started trying to find things to take over my mind so that my thoughts wont. Crying does help me, I will say. When I can break down all at once, I feel relief after. I purchased an adult coloring book recently and Ive started doing that because it helps me focus my mind on something else. Puzzles have helped. Music. Shows that make you feel good.

[Kevin87 in reply to mockingbird4]

Yes! Coloring books and drawing are great!

How are things for you now? You’re right, after a good cry things feel better, but for me it never gets to that it always just builds and builds as an overall depressive episode

[mockingbird4 in reply to Kevin87]

Honestly, I can't get through this. I dont know why.. but I have cried every day for 2 weeks and today, I may leave work after half a day because I just feel like the world is out to hurt me and I feel scared and depressed

[Kevin87 in reply to mockingbird4]

I’m so sorry to hear you’re feeling like this today. I’m still feeling very similar, but in my experience when I wanted to literally “flee” from work, I would either go home and sleep or stay at work and fight it. The latter is what ends up helping me the most because it’s easier for me to separate from the negative thoughts. Is there anything you can do FOR YOURSELF today? Buy yourself a gift, go out to eat, or meet up with friends..anything. What you’re feeling now is what I feel a lot of the time as well. Maybe journal the random thoughts that come up? Usually I can find some sort of resolution when I do this because this also forces all the “bad thoughts out”.

I really hope you get some relief soon, I personally will be finding a therapist some day soon to work past this..

Best wishes

K

[mockingbird4 in reply to Kevin87]

i’ve had a good past two days, yesterday I woke up in a great mood and same for today. i haven’t cried since wednesday and my husband actually congratulated me last night on it. I don’t know what brist through me, but last night I sat in our den and watched a movie while coloring in an adult coloring book and it made me feel so relaxed. I hope you’re doing well today! therapy does wonders for me, I hope you find a good one soon.