Feeling lost

[sea4236]

I haven’t posted on here much but the few times I have it seemed to help a little, so here it goes.

Am I the only scared that I can’t be fixed? Like, I know people say that in time everything can be fixed, but honestly I’m afraid I can’t be. I lose it so often now that it seems that I’m crying way more than I’m not every single day.

I’ve basically shut myself off from everyone except my fiancé and my son. But even lately i feel myself distancing myself from them just so they won’t see how bad it is. I was always outgoing and loved doing things but now I barely talk to anyone. Like at all. But I’m lonely. Does that it even make sense?

I guess I’m just completely lost and I don’t know where to go from here. I just figured id write a little bit to see if it helped at all.

[deea21]

Hey Sea. I recognise myself there so much. I am in a bad situation too. I hardly talk with anybody and I want to lock myself in my room and sleep for ages, or cry or die. But I can’t. Because I’ve done that and I was worse: more fat, ugly and sometimes smelly. Sometimes I beat myself and fight to be different and put all my effort do to a difference, not just with myself but in others life too. I work a lot with myself and when I feel I can’t do a good job, I’m asking for others help. You need to find yourself and to find something that makes you smile. If you feel lost, find a hobby, meditate, pray, i don’t know. You need to find your identity. Isn’t impossible, just our own mind sets limits. It’s hard to work with ourselves, but surely not impossible. Big hug and I hope you succeed.

[dee_bells]

Hi Sea4236,

You make a lot of sense to me. I am the Superwoman of isolation. I’m married, have two adult children and my adult autistic sister lives with my husband and I.

I’m in my room at least 22 hours a day. My family doesn’t understand me and they go off and do their own thing.

I hibernate in my room.

I absolutely hate this life! The only time I feel good is when I go see my therapist and then run errands. But it takes a lot of energy to push myself out the door.

My husband asked me last night if I wanted to go to dinner and I said no. He will not keep asking.

Try really hard not to push your husband and child away. Really push yourself to spend time with them. You don’t want to end up like me.

I’m frightened I’ll be like this forever but I don’t want depression to win and neither should you. See a therapist and find out if medications help. Do something for you everyday and be with your family. You don’t want your son to remember this time when mom doesn’t want to be with me.

I know you can do it! I believe in you and you can gain control of your life! Big hugs!🌸🌸🌸🌸🌸

[sea4236 in reply to dee_bells]

Thank you so much. I’m so sorry that things are going this way for you. Hugs to you too

[dee_bells in reply to sea4236]

Thank you but do this for yourself! If I can help someone else in any way, I’ll feel better. 😁

[KristinK67]

I wish I had some advice too - but I'm in the same boat. I just wanted you to know that who you are and what you're doing right now, is enough. You don't have to prove your strength to anyone. Let's hang in there together, okay?

[sea4236 in reply to KristinK67]

I’m so sorry that you are dealing with this too, but sometimes just knowing you aren’t alone in it makes it just a little easier. Hugs to you

[Hidden]

Hey Sea, I know exactly how you feel. I’m dealing with the same right now too. You still have my number, so if you ever need to reach out to someone, please know that I’m here for you. I hope things get better for you. You deserve to be happy. I think of you a lot, I just don’t wanna bother you. You were the first person to ever write me on this site, so you will always be special to me. I promise I’m here if you need me. <3

[sea4236 in reply to Hidden]

Thank you so much! I think of you a lot too actually. And just so you know, you will never be a bother to me if you need to talk or anything at all. I hate that we are still struggling so much with everything, but we have to get better.

[Hidden in reply to sea4236]

You can get better! You're a wonderful person. I believe in you. Please don't be afraid to shoot me a text or write me on here whenever you need someone to talk to. Trust me, I get it. <3