BEEN VERY DEPRESSED

[Destinyweathers]

I'm having a hard time bringing myself back to normal my depression seems to not be letting up I'm already taking enough medications for other health issues I don't want my body full of medications that's only helping my symptoms but not curing me! What I'm taking always makes me feel sick and I've just been given a new medication! I don't know what to do my life is falling apart! My love life is in the shit hole, we barely have sex I can't even get turned on or get horny to have sex, I can't enjoy fun activities with my family or friends without getting easily irritated or upset about the smallest things and ruin everything for everyone, I can't lose the weight I want too I can't even get motivated to get a nice shape! My sleep is ugly I think for the past month or close to a month I have not slept good like I'm supposed too! I can't keep a job like an adult supposed too to get out of the area I'm in my neighborhood is not a good place to live! My children are the only thing I smile about but they know I'm not myself and I feel like if I don't get help it'll get worse!!! And I'm so paranoid to get help as to fearing the medication won't help me but make me worse cause of all the side effects they hide!!! I keep headaches and my relationship is dying I'm so sure he's tired of dealing with me and his family and my family pretty much hate me and don't want anything to do with me

[gemmaforest]

Destiny hang in there. it's a horribly tough time of year and i get it as much as another person can maybe, because i thought i was going to get off scott free in terms of the depth of depression i usually have at xmas and ny, then overnight i was completely sideswiped and almost unable to function a couple days ago. well yesterday i guess. i felt despair and emptiness all night and nothing helped. today thank god and idk why i feel better. it sounds like you are doing way 2 much and being way 2 hard on yourself. you are probably mentally and physically not 2 mention emotionally exhausted. sleep or at least rest as much as possible sounds like your first priority. let yourself enjoy your kids and let your hub take care of himself! your needs are just as important as anyone else's. i know the feeling abt meds and im a huge skeptic about them but they've really helped me and with minimal side effects. take care of you

[Destinyweathers in reply to gemmaforest]

U don't know how much this meant to me I am literally crying tears I am really trying I swear but I feel a major breakdown coming and I am gonna cry and let it out and I also finally told my family doctor that I need help!!! Thank youuuuuu so much for ur kind and touching words