Medical bills...

[Bluetj]

I have to b at work at 3 am so I go to bed by 5pm. I have been extremely tired here lately so its not taking much for me to fall asleep. I woke up at 10 pm something feeling very strang, having one if those feel like I'm dying moments. I started gettn dress tryn to figure out what I was going to tell the two people at my house, one of them being my youngest son. He's an adult, but the first & only time he saw me with one of my episodes, I thought I was having a heart attack & the ambulance had to be called. In front of me he stayed strong encouraging me that I was going to be alright but calling relatives crying. As I was getting dress, all the medical bills that I already have coming in was plaging my mind. I can't pay for those, what if I go to ER & they say nothing is wrong like they always, then there is another bill. I hate this crap. I am overly exhausted, I may be dehydrated, I feel a bit overwhelmed because of how I'm feeling. Is this really my life? 😢😢😢😢

[Dolphin14]

Are you home now? How are you feeling?

How old is your son?

Sorry for all the questions.

[Bluetj in reply to Dolphin14]

No, I am @ work have to push as always. My son is 26, but he don't understand, this is very 'new' to my family.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Bluetj]

You are under a lot of stress. Stress and anxiety can show up as chest pain or short of breath.

Keeping open communication with your family will help them. It's hard for them to understand what is happening.

My family was taken off guard with my break. So was I.

Do you journal? It's a good way to get things off your chest.

[Bluetj in reply to Dolphin14]

I use to journal but after I lost it, just can't get there any more. 😔😔I am just at a point were I feel like I have lost all control to my life.

[Dolphin14 in reply to Bluetj]

Sounds familiar. I was like that at the beginning of my breakdown.

With a lot of therapy I was able to gain more control over the situations.

Do you take time out for yourself? Just to breathe, have some quiet time, go for a walk? You need to try and find things to take some of the stress off.