I vomited again. (Trigger warning)

[DollJuice]

I did it again. I stopped a year ago and said I would never, yet I did it. I forces myself to vomit up some carrot cake that i ate. My jrans made me look fat, my stomach was full and I made myself vomit. I want to again which is really hard, I hate my body so much. I'm so gross, I am anxious seeing as I have a damn flight tomorrow and I have the worst flight anxiety.

[LiveandLetLive42]

Well you know that’s not right. That’s not healthy at all. I used to do that in high school. It’s also an addiction that can control you. You can do other healthy things. You don’t need to do that!!

[DollJuice in reply to LiveandLetLive42]

Thank you for the kind words

[NeuronerdDoaty]

I love that you went a whole year! Congratulations you’re a superstar. ⭐️💐.

Okay so today was not your day but a whole year! That’s great. Let’s start counting again and shoot for one more day than the last one.

I am impressed and relieved that you shared and held yourself accountable. You’re incredibly brave.

I’m not yelling I’m cheering:

🎖🏆ONE WHOLE YEAR!

Doll you’re amazing!

Love ya’😘

[DollJuice in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thank you so much for the support!

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to DollJuice]

Always💛

[SquirrelsHolt]

Hi there! I'd be saying to you that today is today and whatever had happened,it's already happened for today? BUT .......... tomorrow,you can plan in advance and try and prepare yourself for whatever negative thoughts/actions may come into your head. Be prepared! Say "NOT TODAY,THANK YOU!" Try and I know it's so hard to try and say " you got the better of me yesterday,but you made me so unhappy ..... I don't need you today"

That's only my suggestion and you'd be amazed at what people have to tell themselves,to stop the vomit cycle !!!

Good luck and have a good Christmas 🎍🎅💞

[DollJuice in reply to SquirrelsHolt]

Thanks for the advice. I used it today

[SquirrelsHolt in reply to DollJuice]

Hi and it's nice to know you've talked to yourself,not in a lunatic way but to allow yourself to eat and just for even one meal,you manage to keep the vomit at bay! It's a slow but steady rate of progress,even being able to let your mind be channelled away from how it normally reacts to food,is a major winner. Then I think that tomorrow or when you are next eating,get yourself prepared mentally beforehand and again tell yourself " NOT TODAY........today I'M in control over my FOOD! "

I'd be interested in how you get on and remember,if it's a bad day then a bad day it is but it's a day when you did try really hard and sometimes things don't always go to plan!

Oh nearly forgot to send you Christmas greetings and the hope and strength to make our New Year a good one🎅🎍💞

[greymegan]

Well done you for being clean for an entire year!

I know personally, being bulimic, how hard it is to stop these destructive habits; it is an addiction and a dangerous one at that. And with any addiction, there will be relapses.

I went a few months at one point and the relapsed badly. I ended up more depressed than I had ever been because of how much I hated myself for the relapse.

But you just need to remember the these things happen and although, at the time, you might hate yourself for doing it, but just know that it is just a relapse, not you falling back into your old ways.

You CAN overcome this, do not beat yourself up for a stupid mistake because it was just a stupid mistake and they are bound to happen

Now you can start the count again and just take it one day at a time