Trigger warning - SHOUT out for help

[Rutie]

Hi, I’m new here. I need help desperately. My mental health has started to be bad again after my Husband was diagnosed with emphysema last May and now he has started drinking regularly again after being in recover for a couple of years. Anyone know what might help? I just feel so alone and heart broken. I have BPD so when I’m triggered it’s always extreme but this is more than normal. Last night I found myself googling how to kill myself and first result was to text SHOUT to 85258 and that brought the intensity down. And I took my quetiapine and went to sleep. Second suicidal intense urge in a week. First time I called Samaritans. I just have no one to talk to or get help from. I’m totally alone. I don’t know what to do. Kept bare seeing him hurting himself and exasperating his copd.

[Hidden]

It is important your doctor knows everything and so you should approach. He or she will get you psychiatrist and medication

[Rutie in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. Yes doctor knows. I’m already on medication.

[PeaceNeed]

Ruthie hang in their. Talk to therapist if you have one. Im trying to get one now.

[Hidden]

Suicide is never the answer. Try to distract, find something else to focus on than all these feelings and emotions you’re going through. Stop looking up ways to kill yourself over the internet. Get your mind thinking about something more positive. Do something creative with your hands like painting, or focus on getting some tasks done like doing the dishes.

[Rutie]

Thank you Googoodollsfan xx