First post ..

[kait_]

I’ve never felt this lost and defeated before.

I’ve lost interest in everything.

I have no one I can really open up to.

I can barely find any hope that anything will ever get better.

Any response would be appreciated ☹️.

[kenster1]

hi and welcome to the forum.sorry to hear of your struggles hopefully being on here will help.feel free to open up on here but its important to chat near to home with family or a friend but its important to get it out to help you recover.

[kait_ in reply to kenster1]

Thank you for the welcome .. it’s hard to speak to them when they make me feel really crap most of the time .

[kenster1 in reply to kait_]

yeah but if they don't know of your suffering then they wont be able to help.the first step is the hardest you will be surprised by some folks reactions.have you ever talked to a doctor or enquired about counselling.

[senorab12]

Well here nobody will make you feel bad about yourself, you can talk to me about whatever is bothering and I won’t judge you cause remember we’re all struggling with something in here. I’m here for you

[kait_ in reply to senorab12]

thank you for being so nice and sweet 🥺

[EleanorRose]

It sounds like you’re having a really difficult time at the moment

There are lots of kind and supportive people on this forum who will support you through this time.

I am hear to listen if you want to talk.

Take Care,

Eleanor

[kait_ in reply to EleanorRose]

I really do appreciate you taking the time to reply to my sadness . I just didn’t know how to release just a bit of the sadness and I thought this was worth the chance.

[EleanorRose in reply to kait_]

You’re very welcome. It can take a lot of courage to open up to people so I really admire you coming here. Opening up gets easier and it can be a good release talking to others. Keep posting on the forum whenever you need a release.

You’re also welcome to message me if ever you need to. We are here for you.

Eleanor

[Rdiz777]

Hi, Kait, there is hope! PM me if you need to!

[Skye_Ify]

Hi Kait, we are all here on this forum because of similar feelings to you. I can’t tell you what to do but I can tell you, this to shall pass

[henryclark]

You “ain’t” alone. Watched others, and myself go through dark cloud days.

Would you mind telling me more about your feelings. Guessing their are lots of details behind the feelings: relationships, things you want that don’t come, things you don’t want that are plentiful... not sure the hurt ever stops, and how I (we) react to it can change.

Not going to give you advice cause I don’t pretend to know you...and if you want tell me more, I will listen.

I see a dog picture on your profile. I like that a lot. Love to know his/her name.

[kait_ in reply to henryclark]

hi henry 🌻. yes I know plenty of people feel the way I feel or similar. Have the same problems and issues . I can picture plenty of people over coming their problems and finally being happy . Myself ? I can never ever picture a peaceful life for myself.

Do you mind if I pm you to talk ?

[HopeWithSmile]

Hi kait,

Welcome to the forum. I totally understand how you feel. I’ve never felt so down before, it’s like I am in a pit or something.

I hope we will get through this.

xx

[kait_ in reply to HopeWithSmile]

Hi Love 🌸.

Thank you for the welcome .

Yess exactly , a pit that just keeps getting deeper and deeper ..

I really hope we get through this too , as you are here for me , I am here for you ♥️♥️

[HopeWithSmile in reply to kait_]

Amen! 🙏🏻

[Want2BHappy3]

Not having anybody to open up to is the norm unfortunately. They don’t understand what we’re going through so they don’t want to hear it, that’s why we come to this site. That’s what councilors are for. Just today I finally got my referral to get back into counseling I wish the Best new year coming for everyone 🌲

[kait_ in reply to Want2BHappy3]

they especially won’t understand if they’re a big part causing your pain and just choose not to see it.

I’ve tried counseling , hasn’t worked for me or maybe it was just the wrong counsellor 🤷🏻‍♀️.

I wish the very best for you too , I hope the help you getting lifts you up as much as possible ✨.

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to kait_]

Thank you, you could possibly be seeing the wrong councilor? I was and changed them several times till I found the right one. Then I had financial issues and couldn’t go back, now I have MEDICARE I can’t go back to the counselor that was helping me. The doctor that referred me said that she would get a Good One? I hope so? I’m scared of the mental place I’m in right now. This is the Worse Holidays I’ve had in a long time. I’m trying to pull it together for my grandson whose coming home tomorrow he’s 5 and is so Excited. I feel guilty for not being a Better NoNo is what he calls me. Well thanks for your positive thoughts. Happy Holidays to you and your Family 🌲

[kait_ in reply to Want2BHappy3]

it probably was the wrong councilor and I didn’t know how to speak about what’s happening and I don’t think I understood as well as I do now . And I also am struggling financially and medical aid is better spent on other things unfortunately.

I’m sure you’ll have another great counsellor and if you don’t , it’s pretty clear there’s so much people here who give pretty good advice with open hearts and minds. I myself am here for you , just a message away ♥️.

I am a mother to 2 year old , I have no job and a lot of struggles mentally and I’m also feeling so bad , not being able to provide everything I want to for her .. but focus on what you can do and it doesn’t take much to just make them smile , laugh & feel loved .

Have an amazing Christmas with family love , I wish you all the best 🌸.

[Want2BHappy3 in reply to kait_]

Thank you, I'm still struggling financially, but my medical situation has changed to where I don’t have to pay anymore copayments or for medications so I can go to counseling. I’m sorry that you are struggling financially Too. Handel what you can, even if you buy her used toys she won’t care or know the difference. Wrap it like a regular present. Fortunately for my grandson he gets more gifts than he knows what to do with. We end up donating or giving away some of them. There are Big families on both sides so he needs for Nothing. Thanks for your kind words Happy Holidays 🌲🙏🏼

[Chanshan]

You are always welcome to msg me or anyone e if you want to talk over phone or chat. We are all in the same boat and we can give our shoulders each other to cry.

[kait_ in reply to Chanshan]

I appreciate this so much !

This is why I came here .. for some release and to know that My feelings are acknowledged and shared by someone .

Thank you ♥️

[ovilia]

I felt like that just 2 weeks ago! I remember reading people's posts about depression being temporary and didn't really believe it in my gut. I cried all day and finally went to my PCP, (my psychiatrist was not helping at all and I didn't really trust her) He put me on Wellbutrin, I started walking outside and I really do feel back to normal (90%) Best of all that horrible almost physical mental anguish is gone gone gone. Count on it, one day you will say, "Wow that was awful but I'm finished with that"

[kait_ in reply to ovilia]

I’m really really happy you feel better ! 🤗🌸

The thing is , I have a lot of things wrong with my body that makes me very self conscious and then I can’t speak to people because of it and in the end I can’t finish the things I need to do to become successful because I keep running away .. so even if I get the constant depression and anxiety a bit lower , I still have so many hurdles and I just don’t know if I can do it ..

Thank you for responding , I really do appreciate it

[ovilia in reply to kait_]

I have had medical problems too but they don't seem to matter as much when I am not depressed. I'm old,lol not much I can do about that, but I try to ignore it, lol