Thought I’d share my story here.
These past couple months my anxiety has gotten so bad. I’ve never really dealt with anxiety like this before. I took a trip to the hospital for chest pains and all the x-rays came back just fine. The doctor said I was in great health with my heart and lungs. I started to get better after that, like my nerves were starting to calm down and then my husband had to leave for a work trip and he’s been gone for almost three weeks now and it’s been so incredibly hard not having him here because he was so much support to me. I’m home taking care of our daughter and sometimes it’s just so overwhelming. It’s gotten to the point where I’m not sleeping much now. Last night I didn’t fall asleep until 4 and woke up close to 6. I do have a bed time routine. I try not to look at my phone or watch TV before bed, I drink calming teas but the moment my head hits the pillow I just start worrying about every little thing. There’s no set date on when my husband will get back home and I hate the uncertainty. I just wish I could go back to sleeping well, I’m not sure what started all of this not sleeping stuff but I just know that when I don’t sleep well my anxiety is 10x worse the next day. The back of my neck is constantly stiff and I just have this sense of it’s never going to get better, I’m never going to sleep again, something must seriously be wrong with me.
I’m just trying to hang in there but it’s so exhausting.