I don’t want to make this unduly lengthy but I’m desperate for some uplifting words. I’ve had so many tragedies in the past 10 years. It would look exaggerated if I wrote it all here. I have insurance for my primary care.... she’s been prescribing the same anti depressants for three or four years. I don’t have insurance for psychologist and psychiatrist care.
I’ve had trouble with anxiety during this time and have developed anxiety attacks where I can’t stop crying and shaking. It’s gotten so much worse since April. I have no family. My only son is an alcoholic and is suicidal. He lives out of state and has gone to jail a few times in the past year. He and his spouse moved in April. my grandson (14) has been told by his step dad to quit spending vacations with us and stop calling his grandmother so often. My ex daughter in law was like a daughter to me until this happened this year. Now she has to back away too according to him.
I actually made an effort to meet other women here and the two I thought would be good friends, just didn’t pan out after 6 months.
I remarried 8 years ago to a man with a temper; we don’t really like each other all that much. Financially we need each other in our retirement.
I am lost and I’m scared of who I’m becoming.