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[vyasas_sanscrit]

I am 56 years old, new here, and I have bipolar disorder along with anxiety issues. I was hospitalized twice last month for suicidal ideation. I have lost 5 or 6 friends this year and the was ceremoniously kicked out of my Facebook bipolar group because the leader and founder of the group became a frenemy. Each friend I lost was someone helping me. I have been really unstable about 3 years because of having to stop my main medication geodon. It was causing involuntary mouth and leg movements. It had been my primary med for bipolar disorder since 2007. One friend I lost due to suicide. We had been talking everyday for about 3 months and she killed herself. The last set of friends I lost just in talking to me decided i was too f***ing crazy and dropped me. I just realized 1 of them is really gone today. It's my own fault. I am bipolar but I also have a few borderline tendencies. I'm really afraid now. My children with the exception of one really dont want me around. I dont want to end up alone.

[Cathy63]

Your post caught my attention because we're the same age. Welcome. This is a great place to get support. In addition to this group, it might be beneficial to join a local support group in your area if there is one. I've been to a couple unrelated support groups in person years ago, and they help me a lot. One was a divorce support group, and the other was a single parenting support group. I also went to a meditation group. If I wasn't working so many hours, I'd get out there and join something in person now. I'm so glad I found this group. Easy access from home. I'm sorry you're going through so much. Good luck.

[vyasas_sanscrit in reply to Cathy63]

Thank you. I am a recovering alcoholic. I've been sober since 2007 and AA groups really helped me. I have really bad social anxiety that has gotten worse since then so my ability to attend a in person group is iffy. I love people I just get paranoid. There are no depression groups in the area that i am aware of. I have signed up for counseling but the earliest i can get in is April unless they have a cancellation. I will think about a rl group. Thank you.

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Welcome to the community.

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Alone. Lonely. Female 58. No one to care for me at all. No kids. It worries me to the point of what do I do now. I'm at home for various health issues. I don't work. Have state authorized personal assistant 4 hrs a day. Have emergency home response system from state. I can't take a shower without 2 phones wrist alarm and someone else in the house. I am alone.