I have family in town from Nashville and I love them dearly but don’t feel like myself so I smile and say that I am well and work is good and my life is good and the family is great because I don’t want anyone to know how much energy it took to prepare this beautiful meal and decorate the home and shop for gifts and look decent for your arrival. And I feel guilty while you are here because it takes everything in my power to enjoy it. And I have a 7 hour swim meet for my 15 year old in a hot humid venue tomorrow where I will be cursing the perimenopausal gods. I’ll have to smile yet again while I hope that I won’t panic and make a fool of myself. When will I feel like myself again? I’ve had these anxious episodes before and they have passed. Running out of patience in Colorado. ❤️
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Coloradowalker, oh it will pass but maybe not until they leave.
I've been freaking out since I found out that I will be having out of
town guests this holiday. 2 days, yep.. And I'm putting them up in
a hotel. I want to see them but also want my "me time" that I'm use to.
High anxiety will go down once they're gone but then again so will
Christmas. And so I will meditate and deep breathe my way through
those 2 days. With the help of catering, I will be able to genuinely
put a smile on my face. You're not alone with this feeling.
P.S. Hope the swim meet goes well tomorrow. xx
This is what we do. We do it for ourselves and for our families. Yes, it will pass, but it takes some time. Pam
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