Hi everyone.. I'm new here.
Getting to the point where I don't really know how to cope with these feelings anymore. Few years back, I used to self-harm but having the scars raise so many questions, I've stopped. Got into smoking a ton of pot instead, though after moving over-seas they're not that cheap or easy to find here, so I've stopped that, too.
I'm currently facing many changes in my life, and I constantly almost never have any energy or motivation to do anything I once enjoyed. I used to love going to work, now when I wake up, I'd rather lounge in bed for hours and call sick in the end and work from home. I rarely have any social interaction if I was to go to work anyway & most responsibilities are piled onto me.
I just feel tired of everything and everyone. I left the UK thinking I could find a better opportunity (which I did) but it just doesn't seem great as I thought. Why am I never content or happy with my life? Looking back, I probably had it great in the UK, relationship, social life (occasionally) and a decent work/life balance. Where as here, it seems as I've lost all of that, especially as me and my boyfriend tried going long distance but it's just becoming really hard for me.
I don't really know what to do anymore and just wish I could hibernate 'til all this passes. Even then, would there be a point in waking up? I don't want this life anymore if all I do is overthink and cry. How do I get negative thoughts out of my head? I've tried meditating which doesn't work... I used to go swimming a lot to de-stres myself, but recently just found myself so demotivated. Don't know how to cope anymore.