I'm no longer their aunt😔

I'm here crying in bed trying not to let the pain of losing my best friend get to me but I cant help it. Yeah the past months we would fight alot. But I miss her so much especially her kids. I loved them like if they were mine. She was a sister to me and not hearing them call me tia is breaking my soul. To me that alone is the hardest part i saw them since they were newborns and just thinking I will never again hug them is tearing me apart. I don't want to go to work this afternoon I wish I could call in and not go. Christmas is coming up and this will be by far the saddest of all. I miss the long conversations the trust we had in each other. Will I get over the saddness the pain. Hearing there is only 52 days until christmas was painful. I saw them as my second family and not having them is killing me. Worse thing is I was not able to hug them one last time. Who wwould have thought 2 months ago was going to be the last time I would ever see them. If I had known this i would have held them one more time.

[NWGal]

I am so sorry you are going through the agony and despair after losing your best friend. I lost my best friend of over 50 years because she listed our house for sale and we had to go with another agent because we were desparate to sell it and it had been nearly a year on the market. The pain is horrible. I know what it feels like....

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What hurts to is she said we have nothing in common anymore. Its just crazy because I thought we had alot in common

[EleanorRose]

This brings a tear to my eye 😢

I understand entirely.

Back in August, I fell out with my best friend of almost 20 years. We were really, really close. I don’t really know why - I didn’t understand at the time and still don’t understand why she suddenly felt she needed to cut me out of her life.

We’ve both experienced mental health issues which has sometimes made it a little tricky but we always supported each other in anyway we could. I was so unbelievably upset at the time and still am struggling with it. I think about her all the time. The not understanding why is difficult but mostly I just miss her.

However, I agree with you about the children. I love her daughter wholeheartedly, she is my Goddaughter and I have known her for her entire life. I spent a lot of time with her and I find it so difficult knowing I will not get to see her grow anymore. I will always love her and my friend but it has got a little easier as the months have passed.

[Hidden in reply to EleanorRose]

I was also the godmother to one of her kids and yeah it does hurt not see her again.

[NeuronerdDoaty]

I don’t understand why the kids have to suffer. They did nothing wrong. I think with time that avenue can be opened up. No good parent wants their child to suffer a loss like that when it’s not necessary. This upsets me and I’m sure a lot of your pain is the unselfish feeling for the kids confusion and loss of you. It makes life and people untrustworthy to humans. The parent needs to reconsider your availability in their lives.

I’m sorry about your friendship.

Doaty💛

[Hidden in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Thanks for understanding and yeah I keep wondering if they ask about me or are they to small(4 year old and a 2yr old kids) to miss me

[Sunf7ow3er in reply to Hidden]

They do and I’m sure your sister misses you too. Don’t give up and let everything fall into place.

[NCLouLou]

I totally agree with an earlier comment; the kids don’t have to suffer. If your former friend doesn’t want to see you because of “nothing in common” you could still go get the kids & go to the park .....

[tbg1961]

Like I said on your other post. I will talk you if you need an ear or a shoulder.

I hope you can recover and learn to smile again. We're with you, here!

[Mrspjsmom]

I am so sorry you are going through this. I have a best friend who is closer to me than my own sister. I don't know what happened and can only imagine your pain but I believe with all my heart everything happens for a reason. Sometimes it takes years to understand why but there is a reason. You sound like a kind loving person and soon you may find yourself becoming another child's tia. HUGS and BLESSINGS!

[Hidden in reply to Mrspjsmom]

Thamis I sure hope it becomes easier