I can't - I'll get into trouble

[Magicdreamer]

Hello All ya beautiful peeps. 💐💞

So, I'm working in a restaurant every second day and only day shift as working a double really depletes my energy. I've been taking it slow and trying to be present and so far so good.... I did get a slight panic attack when I started serving a new table when I already had one as I've been feeling pretty cautious because the chaos makes me feel overwhelmed - it's like sneaking around anger triggers.

So, I'm actually working at a slower pace than I use to as I feel it's better quality and I'm doing less tables but receiving more monetary value... I'm learning to slow down and notice the thoughts which are the cause and the effect in the emotional body. I'm dealing with a lot of rules and in particular, I'm not allowed and I can't (ongoing until it's not). I poured a draught beer for the very first time but was pretty hesitant but I could see the lesson was for me so I went ahead and poured one, which turned out to be spot on.

My self-awareness has definitely improved as I'm able to see the aspects within me that reflect in others around me and it's definitely making me more compassionate. Trying to unravel this insane feeling of having to be right and accept that I've been wrong which is a pride thing us humans have been taught. Opening up my ears to lhearing and my heart to listening more and also filtering the bullshit outside and within.

It's developing at a pace of s-l-o-w-i-n-g things down so I'm present within my emotional body trying to hear the thoughts triggering emotions if shame (not good enough) and knowing what comes to me is a challenge but it's actually one step forward and not a leap, which is way more kinder.

Love and Light 🌹💐❣️

[hypercat54]

That's all good sweetheart so keep going. The first drink I poured in a pub was lager shandy but unfortunately I put peppermint in instead of lemonade.... x

[Magicdreamer in reply to hypercat54]

That's brilliant! 😂 I'm definitely rip-toeing around getting into trouble (perfectionism) and anger. Thank you for your support, Sunshine. Mwah! 💚💐

[Hidden]

Hi Magicdreamer.

This sounds really amazing.

Sounds like your learning to manage things you can cope with and doing really well too..

I wanted to say hello and to say this post is very inspiring...

When we go out of our comfort zone it’s far from easy, but if we can learn to manage things to help us then we can do it...so pleased for you..

Every good wish 🌹🌹🧚🏻‍♀️

[Magicdreamer in reply to Hidden]

Hello Olivia. Thank you for the vote of confidence and the kind words. You've helped me understand from a different perspective - thank you. Yeah, it's kinda like learning to walk again... Like a baby bird learning to take flight... I'm also learning what it is I like and don't like and use to judge a lot of people at face value so I'm beginning to see a little deeper. Blessings to you. 💚💐

[Hidden in reply to Magicdreamer]

It’s so good when we learn stuff to help us...

Taking it easy on yourself is a great one! And taking time as much as you can...

Some days are harder than others but in time you will do it like second nature because you will know it...we all need time to learn...and progress

Yes we make mistakes along the way but we are only human ,not beating ourselves up and learning by any mistakes is fab !

You got this !

Xx

[Magicdreamer in reply to Hidden]

Thank you, Sunshine. Xxx😊

[Hidden in reply to Magicdreamer]

❤️Xx

[Starrlight]

Smart of you to go for quality and slow it down and avoid chaos. Sounds like you are doing great.

[Magicdreamer in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you, Hunni

[Puzzled57]

Your plan sounds awesome and Inspiring. Here’s to continued success!!!

[Magicdreamer in reply to Puzzled57]

Mwah! Thank you. 💚