Day 3

[brokenlight]

It feels like I can’t do anything right, say anything right.

[Starrlight]

((((((((((((( ❤️ brokenlight ❤️ ))))))))))))) So sorry. So are others treating you like you aren’t doing/saying anything right or is this how you perceive yourself? Either way you need a break from it.

You are amazing. Remind yourself how amazing you are by treating yourself well. What is it you need right now and make it happen. Think of things you like about yourself. You really are likable and lovable.

[brokenlight]

Thank you so much for your response Starrlight! It means the world in this moment...

It’s both. And you’re right, I 1000% need a break from it. I’m soul-level exhausted.

Thank you for these reminders 💙

I keep trying to remind myself of my greatness, but it doesn’t stick.

Which makes me even more frustrated because I don’t want to let others affect me so greatly. It’s the worst.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to brokenlight]

How about ‘I am enough’. ‘I am exactly who I need to be.’

[brokenlight in reply to NeuronerdDoaty]

Those are great. Thank you so much. 💙

[brokenlight in reply to brokenlight]

But to be very honest... when I repeat mantras like that, they feel like I’m lying to myself.

[NeuronerdDoaty in reply to brokenlight]

That’s why they’re mantras. You repeat until you feel it. Emotions can lie.

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

I hear ya I often feel I let others affect me too much but I guess that’s great that we know it, having the insight can help us start to change that.

Yeah doesn’t always stick but the more positive we feed ourselves the better eventually.

I hope writing it out has helped and keep doing whatever helps. I’m here for you, we all are.

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you so much Starrlight 💙

I appreciate your words a lot.

[Starrlight]

Just thinking ya know what WE think the truth is about ourselves is important not what others might think and it’s easier to control what we think...just 🤔 thinking

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

So true. And I know this. But I get caught up & eventually lost... brought back to the excruciating pain of never feeling enough.

Self love practice helps but I can’t make it a consistent thing.

Thank you for your responses today.

Being able to express myself here & to find support is amazing.

I hope you are well ✨

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

Don’t feel bad I’m the same way, can’t seem to make self love constant. Well do our best.

Keep expressing yourself. You’re doing great!

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

I really appreciate that Starrlight 💛

Thank you so much 😢✨

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

How are you doing today Brokenlight? I just came from the doc. Asthma and bronchitis. Woohoo 😉 I have so much to do today as it’s my 12 year old’s birthday party...but this stuff is kicking my butt! I’ll have to give orders so it’s not all me doing the work.

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

Thanks for checking in Starrlight!

I’m okay. It’s been a shit roller coaster of highs and lows.

I’m sorry for your news & I hope you start to feel better soon. ✨

Happy Birthday to your son! 🎊

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

Thank you soooo! I hear you on the highs and lows. What do you think is causing that?

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

The places within me that are not yet healed.

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you for asking ✨

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

(((((((((Brokenlight))))))))

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

✨✨✨✨❤️

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

😊

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

How are you today?

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

Thank you so much for asking.

I feel awful, hopeless, angry, & sick.

How are you?

[Starrlight in reply to brokenlight]

Awww I’m so soooo sorry, beautiful. Do you want to talk more about it?

I’m anxious about some renewal for my kids medical insurance ... they keep messing up so i get scared but I’m working on it and did all I can for now so trying to chill. It’s so hard to chill before things are worked out but it does me no good to sit here worrying.

[brokenlight in reply to Starrlight]

I hope you for all the medical insurance stuff figured out ✨