Day 22

[Lazy_dog_lover]

March 31st, I was collecting bits of things to work on and complete things on my to-do list. 2:32 on, on my way home, a lady blew a red arrow and made a left right in front of me.

My car is totalled. My body is broken, right heel, both bones in right forearm, the sternum, ribs on the right side, and soft tissue through my chest.

Social isolation and a no-visitor rule means I can only see my family through the glass front door and video chats.

During the first week in the hospital, they were not giving my Zoloft and Clonazepam. Cold turkey, stopped. The pain meds combo kept me in a stupor for almost a week. One anxiety attack and they quickly restarted.

So, I lay here in the hospital bed on day 22 and wonder why. There is no right or wrong answer, but why did I survive?

[Fisher55]

This may not be exactly what your looking for but, I believe God has a plan for everyone. Obviously there is something more to come that you can’t quite see yet. There is a purpose for everything. There is a bigger picture, just wait for God to finish painting it.

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Fisher55]

Thank you. I have been waiting for the other door to open.

[Hidden]

I'm so sorry it happened to you, but I'm happy you're here with me now. Wish you be healthy and strong.

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Hidden]

Thank you.

[Mary-intussuception]

So sorry to hear what haporned to you and what you are going through. That's such a terribly long time to be in hospital and especially now with no visitors allowed.

It won't seem like this now - but you will come through this, this living nightmare will end. You will recover in time.

You are Precious.

I'm glad you survived.

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Thank you. I think I am just physically and emotionally exhausted. When one is so independent and then in a moment, every move relies on someone else, it is frustrating. They also seem to tell me one way things will happen and then it all changes.

[Mary-intussuception in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

It is frustrating. I don't cope well with being in hospital, but have never been in for that long.

I know what you mean about being told one way things will happen and then it changes.

You must be exhausted, and distraught, wondering when things will improve. I cannot imagine what you're going through.

Can you make plans in your thoughts - what things you will do when you get out of hospital?

I sincerely hope that the day when you have your independence back is not too far off & what you're going through now quickly fades away - into the past.

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Mary-intussuception]

Thanks. I still have 1-2 weeks staying at my sister's. It wasn't my first choice of a place to stay. I don't like being indebted to her. The hospital would only discharge me because she has no steps and there are plenty of people that there is someone to help me at all times.

[Hidden]

Because you’re not done touching lives and your body is showing you it wants to heal & love & live. I hope you get your meds soon so happy you’re alive and healing with help at hospital!!

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Hidden]

Thanks. I have a video call with my doctor on Monday, so I can let him know what happened.

[Hidden in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

You’re going through kinda shock of accident and covid same time & no meds. Just lay there and rest and relax and now you know ... there’s so much you can & will live for now big hug.

[Lazy_dog_lover in reply to Hidden]

Thank you. I can now empathize with all our elders who fear coming into the nursing home setting. I know I discharge on Monday. The thought of having to be here long term is dauting. 21 days will be long enough for me.

[Hidden in reply to Lazy_dog_lover]

So happy you’re getting out holy that’s a long time in there you’re a miracle !! Yes health things can open your eyes to diff things. So grateful for your family & really living your life after rehabilitations. You didn’t get lucky for no reason. I feel for old people too. I wish I had kids lol. Big hug super stoked for you !

[Hidden]

I’m so sorry to hear what happened. I hope you’re healing and doing better. Tell us anything you’d like us to do to lift your spirits

[Lazy_dog_lover]

Thank you. Just venting it out helped. I need some sunshine on my face. I am supposed to leave Monday. I have to stay at my sister's for 1-2 weeks.